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In another lifetime
Gary V.


I could hold on for a hundred years
When all else is gone

I would still be here
In a memory of things yet unseen
I’d remember all that we’ve never been
And I cannot wait to see
What life has in store for me

[chorus]
In another lifetime
It would be forever
In another world
Where you and I
Could be together
In another set of chances
I’d take the one’s I’d missed
And make you mine
If only for a time
My life would matter
In another life


And I’d stay as strong and I’d stay as true
And you’d have forever now to think it through
Coz I believe what wasn’t meant to be
Wasn’t meant for now and
Someday you’ll see
In a place and time we never know
I’d be standing there waiting for you
[Repeat Chorus]

[Bridge]
You would be mine
But until that time is now
I’d be holding on somehow
[Repeat Chorus]

[Coda]
But until that time
I’ll be holding onto forever
Until another life 

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maaga akong nagising dahil sa isang phone call.si tatay...haaayyy miss ko na siya.tas ayun hanggang sa magdecide na rin akong gumising na lang...di rin kasi ako nakatulog ng matino kagabi.pagkababa...ayung sermon na naman ang nanay ko...well di naman ako ang dahilan kaya medyo akyat uli ako sa kuwarto ko at ayokong maputukan.after a while baba na rin ako para kumain ng almusal...naligo at ayun sinuot ang malaki kong uniform at pumasok na sa school

pagdating sa labasan hindi naman traffic kaso mahirap sumakay ng diretsong quiapo so ayun naglakad pa ako hanggang over pass para lang sumakay sa jeep.hehehe buti na lang diretso.haha nakakatawa pa kasi yung katapat ko kamukha ni nanay melai...ang weird talaga.pagkatapos ng 45mins...dumating na rin ako sa uste...ihingihi pa ako sa lagay na yun.

pag-akyat ko ng bldg...humingi ako ng sign...sabi ko kapag nakita ko si president ibig sabihin magiging masayang sem ang haharapin ko...at ayun pagliko ko paakyat ng third flr mukha agad niya ang bumulaga sa akin kaso...di kami nagpansinan...bakit kaya.sa third flr unang bumati sa akin si nomer...hehehe congrats at wala siyang bagsak at hindi siya inc.haaayyy sobrang saya ko para sa kanya...at sumunod si chile...at ayun makukuha na rin niya yung nat sci nya this sem...walang kasing saya.tas habang pinagmamasdan ang pilang sobrang haba nakita ko si julie tas sabi ko sabay na lang kami.habang naglalakad nakita namin si pearl at si phyluz...hehehe chisimisan...tas nakita ako nila abi...sinama nila ako dun sa bulletin board para tignan yung tuition fee...hehehe ang saya kasi nakita ko si kama...haayyy kung sinuswerter ka nga naman.after namin dun balik kami sa pila.nandun na sila cha, krisha, dasas, emman, melai, jas,at shane...at ang pambungad...tumaba ka...ayun naman ang hurt nun ah...halos di na nga ako kumain dito sa bahay tumaba ako...syet talaga!!!!syempre kuwentuhan habang naghihintay ng turn namin...hanggang sa ayan na dumating kami sa pinto...kinabahan na talaga ako...sobra na ang dasal ko sabay...yung lalaki na nagbibigay ng clearance nagtanong pa..."pano ka sisigaw kapag pumasa ka?"sabi ko talaga pasado ako...tas ayun...yes...pasado nga sa lahat...as in passed ako sa lahat...ano ba ito...ang saya...nagbunga ang aking mga araw na walang tulog...salamat po talaga.

after namin dun pumunta kami ng main...para tignan ang grades...ay aba ang nadatnan namin ay isang mahabang pila...as in...kaya nagive up na lang kami at pumunta sa pav.pagdating sa pav...syet sumakit talaga yung ulo ko...sa sobrang daming nagpahula sa akin...haaayyy

after ng mahabang panghuhula...pumunta na kami sa mcdo para kumain ng lunch...hahaha kagulat gulat dumating si fernan...hahah ang saya talaga...sarap mang-asar...samahan pa ng gatong ni love anne...hehehe after kumain...napagdesisyunan naming magvideo oke sa san lazaro san ka pa...ano ba yun.

saya magvideo oke...kaso di ako nakakanta dahil nanghula pa ako...ano ba ito...pero sobrang saya...masaya kasi magkakasama kami...haaayyy mamimiss ko sila this sem...swear....haaayyy kung di ko lang kailangang mag ayos lalo na sa comelec at pag-aaral...haaayyy

haaayyy salamat po sa araw na ito Lord...naging masaya po talaga ako...sobra!!!!

ikakanta ko na lang kaysa sa ikwento ko pa

Afraid For Love To Fade

My head's in a jam
Can't take you off my mind
From the time we met
I've been beset by thoughts of you
And the more that I ignore this feeling
The more I find myself believing
That I just have to see you again

CHORUS:
I can't let you pass me by
I just can't let you go
But I know that I am much too shy to let you know
Afraid that I might say the wrong words and displease you
Afraid for love to fade before it can come true

Like a child again
I'm at a loss for words
How does one define a crush combined with longing
Longing to possess you oh so dearly
I'm obsessed with you completely
I'll go mad if I can't have you

CHORUS:
I can't let you pass me by
I just can't let you go
But I know that I am much too shy to let you know
Afraid that I might say the wrong words and displease you
Afraid for love to fade before it can come true

I can't let you pass me by
I just can't let you go
Let me say the things and say the words to let you know
I would rather say the awkward words than lose you
Or for love to fade before it can come true
Afraid for love to fade before it can come true

My head's in a jam
Can't take you off my mind...

weird ko

happy day...weird pero masaya ako..syet talaga..hindi ko gusto yung ganitong feeling.

di ako makatulog kagabi, ewan ko ba siguro dahil kabado ako at wala akong nagawa buong araw at hindi ako nakapag-aral ng ganon kabuti para sa RC.pero hindi hindi yun yung kaba ko kaya di ako nakatulog...whaaaa basta kapag sobrang confirmed na ikekwento ko rin.sa ngayon itatago ko muna.nagising ako mga 4:45 naligo at ayun pumasok na rin ng halos kabahan dahil may dala akong malaking pera.habang naglalakbay papuntang maynila...at nag-aaral kung san saan pumupunta ang utak ko..at ayun nga siguro sabi ni God kailangan mawala sa utak ko yung iniisip ko ayun tinugtog sa radyo ang SABIHIN MO NA...peste talaga nawala nga sa utak ko yung iniisip ko napalitan naman ng ibang tao...ganon din...

dumating ako sa uste ng 6:45...pumunta ako ng speech rm para lang ipaabot yung project ko.kailangan ko kasing pumunta sa main bldg para magbayad ng tuition fee.pagdating ko sa main...haba ng pila.naisip ko tuloy kung aabot ako sa exams ko ng 8:30 eh 8 pa magbubukas yung accounting office.goodluck sa akin!habang nakapila biglang lumabas yung guard at sinabing
"lahat ng estudiyante ng AB, CFAD, EDUC, PHARMA dun na sa bldg nila magbayad" syet naman o manong sana kanina mo pa sinabi.nagmadali tuloy akong pumunta sa educ.

pagdating sa educ medyo mahaba na rin yung pila at hindi pa nagsisimula ang bayaran.mga ilang sandali lang lumabas na yung mga classmates ko galing sa special class namin sa speech.dinaanan ako ni oliver para lang sabihing...hindi ka na aabot beshie...sira ulo talaga yun.sabi ko tuloy sa kanya kung pwedeng tanungin na si ma'am picadizo kung pwedeng magexmas na walang permit.naramdamamn ko rin kasing hindi ako aabot.after 5minutes ayun na nagbigay na ng form yung guard at natuwa naman ako kaso ilang sandali lang dumaan na si ma'am picadizo. patay na hindi na nga ata ako aabot.ilang minuto uli dumaan si oliver at sinabing pwede raw magtest ng walang permit.umalis na ako sa pila ko at sinabi sa guard na kailangan kong makuha yung form ko kasi aalis na ako.sabi nung guard nasa office na raw balikan ko na lang daw mamaya.huwag na rin daw akong pumila pagbalik ko.yes ang galing talaga.

yung test sa RC was relatively easy...hehehe kung meron nga lang akong notes tungkol dun sa mga pesteng paring bumisita sa kay Rizal ok na sana kaso,...ayun nanghula na ako sa part na yun.maaga akong natapos less thang 30mins lang ata nung tinapos ko yun test.partly inspired and partly studied for the exams...hahahaha.paglabas ko balik agad ako sa office at tamang tamang nakuha ko na yung permit ko at nabayaran ko na yung tuition ko.

umuwi na ako kaagad kasi marami pa akong gagawin. LP ko sa educ 207, NFE modules, at book critique.buti na lang talaga isa na lang exams ko bukas.hahahaha at tinatamad pa akong mag-aral...o hindi ko lang talaga alam kung anong uunahin sa sobrang dami. bahala na...

haaayyy ano ba tong nangyayari sa akin...kasalanan niya to eh...siguro nga yung mga signs nung sunday may ibig sabihin yung mga yun..at konektado sa taong yun kung bakit...peste ano bang meron ka?

ano bang meron?

nakatulog ako ng mga 2 ng umaga..bakit dahil sa isang taong pinawindang ang mundo ko for an hour...syet talaga sobrang...basta windang talaga ako. nagising ako ng mga 5:30 sasama kasi kami sa paghatid kay mel sa DLSU...ngayon kasi yung entrance test nya eh.umalis kami ng mga 7:45 sa bahay...pagdating sa qAve...hahaha pinabalik ni mel yung sasakyan kasi nalimutan nya yung schl id nya.ayun buti na lang nakarating naman kami ng taft ng saktong 8 so hindi naman siya nalate.dahil 12:30 ang tapos ni mel minabuti naming maghanap nila nanany ng tatambayan.so ayun napunta kami sa Manila Zoo...hahaha ang nostalgic nung feeling...pakiramdam ko gr1 ako at nagfifieldtrip.sayang lang kasi hindi maayos yung zoo dahil dun sa bagyo.mga 11 bumalik na kami ng FX kasi biglang umambon...tas ayun balik uli ng DLSU para sunduin si mel.

para maglunch pumunta kami ng glorietta...buti na lang papaayos ko na kasi yung phone ko...lagi na kasing nagloloko.tas pagdating dun narinig ko yung song na huwag na huwag mong sasabihin at rainbow...peste ano bang meron.tas pagdating sa Nokia sa G3 pinakuha nila ako ng number...at tenenennn ang numero ay 8.inisip ko wala lang yun...diba number lang walang ibang ibig sabihin.tas nung tinanong ko yung date sa babae...ay aba...oct 8 pala ngayon...ano ba...naasar na talaga ako.after sa glorietta sabi ko ano bang meron at mukhang nagpaparamdam ata...sa sobrang hindi ako mapalagay...sabi ko LORD bigyan nyo po ako ng isang matindi...at ayun nung pauwi na ako sa may New Intramuros...may mga nakasalubong kaming 5 fortuner na kulay BLACK>>>at ang plate number nilang lahat...puro 8...ano ba yun...sobrang nawiwindang na talaga ako...anong ibig sabihin nun...well isa pang sign...kapag nangyari...ibig sabihin konektado yung mga sign ngayon sa taong nagpawindang sa akin kaninang madaling araw....

bakit ba lagi na lang mas bata...ano ba...

i always do this...AND I PROMISE NOT TO DO IT EVER AGAIN

i always fail people...people who has high expectations of me...

i failed MYSELF...when i did not passed my Glee club audition when i was in grade 3
i failed MYSELF...when my teacher embarrased me infront of my classmates after...
i failed my PARENTS... when after being a consistent honor student I just did not let them go up the stage
i failed my PARENTS... when i seek more the company of my friends that i really turned out to be a bad student...
i failed my THEATER DIRECTORS...they gave me a good role but i always get to rehearsals late...in the end i quit
i failed SHERRY ROSE... when i told her i dont want us to be the best of friends
i failed MARGAUX... for being so childish, good thing we really never ended the friendship
i failed MYSELF...for not fighting for the one i really love
i failed DIANE... for not being a good friend to her
i failed CECILIA.. for not listening to her
i failed ANDRIA... when all she did was treasure the friendship...there I was wrecking it because of some selfish fear
i failed my PARENTS... for not being part of the math olympiad...to think that kuya and mel passed that
i failed again my PARENTS... for passing the entrance test of MCHS with summer classes in math and reading
i failed SHEILA... for not loving her whole heartedly...for holding back and not letting her know how much she means to me
i failed ANDRIA... for not fighting for the friendship that we had...and yes IM THE FIRST PERSON IN THE WORLD WHO MADE HER CRY...
i failed MARGAUX...for still thinking that i was the one who cant let go of andria
i failed SAM and CHESKA... for still cutting my risk even though i told them i wont and will never do it...
i failed ANDRIA... for making her feel that she's the reason why Ive done that...GOD AM I A GOOD FRIEND OR WHAT...
i failed 4-2...for not being a good choral singing leader...DAMN I SUCK
i failed the GLEE CLUB... for not taking care of my voice and for being sick at the day of the finals...because of a FAILED solo performance...we did not won
i failed CATREG...she believed but then i did not believe on myself
i failed my PARENTS...AGAIN.. for not getting in to ATENEO....much as i FAILED MY SELF FOR NOT GETTING TO THAT SCHOOL WHO BY THE WAY THE ONLY SCHOOL WHO OFFERS THE COURSE THAT I REALLT WANTED
i failed MYSELF... for not getting to UP...the heck...im just PLAIN STUPID!
i failed MS. ROMAN... for not studying the piece for the concert...it ended up the piece was thrown on my feet
i failed HIM... for being afraid of loving him
i failed PAU.. for not making you feel how I loved you so much...for not being true to what i feel...Damn i suck on this...
i failed my PARENTS...YES AGAIN... for mot pursuing medicine and i ended up being a teacher...
i failed SHANE.. for not being the best friend that he wanted... i just cant be like that...or im just stopping myself on being attached...
i failed RONALD... for not doing the task consistently...
i failed ALEX... for not meeting the deadlines even adjusting for me when i should be the one who should be adjusting for him...
i failed MA'AM PICADIZZO... for not being sensitive...
i failed 3E2... for being the noisy student in Doc A's class and because of that we were scolded...
i failed THEM AGAIN... for not fighting for them...for not telling Doc A what's on my mind...for not being true to what i feel...for being me...COWARD!!!

IM JUST A FAILURE...IM JUST CONFORMING TO WHAT OTHER PEOPLE THINK OF ME...I JUST WANT SOMEONE THAT I CAN HOLD ON TO FOR I AM WEAK...

maybe i just have to let go of everything and start all over again...maybe this is not what Destiny wants but im just to stubborn to listen...I LEARNED MY LESSON...im crying and i will never stop feeling pain until I can conquer my self and start being true to what i feel...

Look at me
You may think you see
Who I really am
But you’ll never know me
Every day, is as if I play apart
Now I see
If I wear a mask
I can fool the world
But I can not fool
My heart
Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
I am now
In a world where I have to
Hide my heart
And what I believe in
But somehow
I will show the world
What’s inside my heart
And be loved for who I am
Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me?
Why is my reflection
Someone I don’t know?
Must I pretend that i’m
Someone else for all time?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
There’s a heart that must
Be free to fly
That burns with a need
To know the reason why
Why must we all conceal
What we think
How we feel
Must there be a secret me
I’m forced to hide?
I won’t pretend that i’m
Someone else
For all time
When will my reflections show
Who I am inside?
When will my reflections show
Who I am inside?

Go USTE!!!

panalo o talo...wala na akong ibang maisip ang gusto ko lang matapos na lahat ng dapat kong gawin sa buhay ko!!!at mag SEMBREAK NA...

and yes i miss the word SLEEP