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up until now i still dont know what to tell people whenever they ask me if im ok. i still dont know, but i think that conversation a while ago with JB made me realized that, its time for me to begin a new. i have picked up the lessons and accepted what happened and its up to me to begin right away or still be a prisoner of my past.i have loved her and will always love her.but US is now a part of my past and something out there is waiting to be discovered, and someone out there deserves to be given a chance to feel the love i have inside.there is so much love inside of me...and i was blinded that it was only her whom i could share it with.right now i must say that i am not ready to have a relationship or even suitors for that matter.not because its unfair for her or she would think that things are so fast...but (to make things clear)RIGHT NOW I DONT NEED ANY PERSON TO PICK UP THE PIECES AND MAKE ME WHOLE AGAIN..WHAT I NEED IS MYSELF TO DECIDE TO HAVE A NEW LIFE...A LIFE WITHOUT HER A LIFE WITHOUT WHAT IFS...A LIFE NOT LOOKING BACK, AGAIN.and when that time comes, i know that God will be seeking for me again, to ask if i could share what I have with another person, with someone who will not make me whole...but a person complementary to make two person one.and as i always see love...my life will be full of chances, unexplained matters...and even wonderful events...LESSONS ARE NOW LEARNED...AND I DECIDED TO USE THEM...TO MY NEW START