crush
after 4yrs of not being serious of me having crushes on anyone or liking other people for that matter is so over.Last time i posted something here, telling people that i should be having my life back, and not be a prisoner of my past.I talked to nanay melai about it, and she told me i should have done it a little bit earlier.I guess i really should be hit twice or thrice before i could decide on something.I looked at her friendster bulletin, and read that she has a crush on someone in LB.I dont know but i hate thinking about it but my mind and heart is telling me that things are so fast for her.and then just right now, i saw that her status now is that it is complicated, she never put a picture of her with another person in her friendster profile, but i was surprised that she did.I dont know what to feel. I cant really tell her to do things, she has her own way of moving on and I have mine too.And yes, everybody else is telling me that she has that kind of attitude, i thought and even fought for it that she is not like what they are thinking of, but I was wrong.Definitely, as i see it she is a selfish person, only thinking of her needs and not thinking if other people will get hurt as long as she gets the attention the credit the love of all the people around her. I dont know maybe im bitter or something, or maybe im hurting...but not jealous.I must say that i still love her, but my love for her is just a mark of my past.and for the first time, after 4yrs i decided to leave that past now and move on with my life...without her.personally things for me are quite doing well.I guess having kilig moments while watching tv and DVD's are now flowing in me.I missed those days that I will go anywhere just to look for my crushed...and even research about them. Today, i realized that there are so many things that I missed out, being so attached with her made me close my door, my mind even my heart to other possibilities.and now, I can say that I'm having a life without her, and my little step creates new happy memories in my life.surely love will come back to its newer form, and when that day comes, I know that I'll be ready to give myself again...not being afraid to be hurt again.
"sing like no one is listening, dance like no one is watching...LOVE ILIKE YOU'LL NEVER GET HURT...live like its heaven here on earth"
dumaan si louie at 12:59:00 AM
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"she never put a picture of her with another person in her friendster profile, but i was surprised that she did."
ah... yun yung bago ña?
Definitely, as i see it she is a selfish person, only thinking of her needs and not thinking if other people will get hurt as long as she gets the attention the credit the love of all the people around her.
yep... she is. ahaha... it's not that i blindly hate her for hurting me. it's that she keeps on repeating hurting others. she will assure you that she loves you and you will feel so loved. you'll feel like nothing could go wrong, that everything is perfect.. and then out of nowhere, *boom!* iiwanan ña. but hey, sana na lang masaia sha sa ginagaua ña k'se frankly, it's so pathetic. ang sad na yan na kaligayahan ña.
by now she should already be aware of what she's doing but i guess it wasn't a mistake... i guess ganun talaga sha.
I dont know maybe im bitter or something, or maybe im hurting...but not jealous.
i know what you mean.. ahaha! dati, nung nalaman ko na kaio uli, s'be ko: potah. ano nangyari sa boilet nun? ahaha... i knew it. babae pa rin bagsak ña. 'di rin ako nagseselos, sabi ko lang kala sil, sana talaga wag na mananakit si pau.. k'se.. sakit eh. ahaha.. hayun. letch lang k'se wala pa rin pala, ganun pa din.
I must say that i still love her, but my love for her is just a mark of my past.
buti ka pa..ü ako k'se, i don't. ahaha! sa lahat k'se ng ayoko: htpocrite, liars, at nangiiwan sa ere. akalain mong lahat yun na sa kaña? ahaha! but it's good that you don't hate her. ü don't get me wrong, i have no regrets. i've learned a lot of lessons from that shit.ü
I will go anywhere just to look for my crushed...and even research about them.
ahaha! share ko lang, ang sarap ngang kiligin.. >___< ahaha! sobrang crush ko co-worker ko kahit wala naman talagang patutunguhan k'se: 1. co-worker ko sa CATHOLIC school. abai yari ako non. grabe pa man din ang chismis sa faculty.ö 2. straight dau ang gaga kahit na ang aura ña inde. ahahaha! woh diba.hehe..ü AT share ko lang uli. after a few months, dun lang nagsink in na mai worth naman pala ko. mai nanliligau k'se sa kin [babae pa din]na sobrang bait, sobrang kulit lang. philippine team ng basketball. ahaha! walang wala si pau. joke.ü anywei, dun lang nagsink na.. ewan. basta naramdaman ko na me worth pa din pala ko..ü
I'll be ready to give myself again...not being afraid to be hurt again.
mahirap 'di matakot, 'di maging sobrang cautious after getting hurt but... kaia nga yan.ü specially with the friends that you have.ü
o sha. nobela ata nasulat ko. ahaha! ingatz lagi!ü
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