A 155 Question MySpace Survey...With Good Grammar!
~*The Basics*~
Your full name::	maria louise domingo pante
--What does it mean?::	ang alin..pangalan ko?ang maria ibig sabihin nun blessed tas louise heroine...so blessed heroine...im a hero...
Your birthday::	september 6, 1986
Height::	5'2 1/2
Eye colour::	dark brown
--Do you like it?::	yeah
Natural hair colour::	dark brown
--Do you like it?::	oo naman
Gender::	female...hahahahaha
Religion::	roman catholic
--Have you ever changed religions?::	di naman...pero dati nung first yr college ako pinangarap kong maging buddhist
--Would you consider it?::	yeah...diba nga naisip kong magpalit dati
Race::	filipino...isa akong kayumangging asyano
Heritage::	filipino...
--Do you like your heritage?::	oo naman..
Where do you live?::	sa balara
Have you ever moved cities or countries?::	yeah
Your job::	USTEdiyante
--Do you enjoy it?::	oo naman
~*Favourites*~
Movie::	the village, godzilla,wedding singer,shutter,Now that I have you,JOLOGs,Bagets 1 and 2 saka working girls 1
TV show::	hmmm card captor sakura, only you, metor garden, all abt 1 %,my name is kim sam soon, princess hours, abt ur love
TV character::	sakura, sailor mercury
Movie character::	hmmm wala
Book::	stella in heaven, after eden, she say he say
Literary character::	wala
Author::	anne rice, mitch albom, paulo coehlo,arnold arre,bob ong,neil geiman
Band::	silent sanctuary,mojofly,imago,sheila and the insects,urbandub,paramita, up dharma down
Song::	stay ni carol banawa saka because of you ni Neyo
Type of music::	kahit ano...basta wag masyadong mainga tas di ko na gets yung lyrics
Instrument::	violin saka piano at guitara
Cereal::	hmmm corn flakes
Fast food place::	KFC saka shakey's at pizza hut
Dessert::	choc nut ice cream
Country::	maldives
City::	quezon city
Place to travel::	gusto ko ma tour buong asia
Airline::	ah...wala
Shampoo/conditioner::	wala din
Lotion::	wala
Subject in school::	filipino
Teacher::	ms lacson, ms. roman,sir aris, sir dayag, sir castro, ms boots, ma'am carillio, ma'am vindollo
Province::	aklan
State (if you're American)::
Football team::	wala
Hockey team::	wala
Athlete::	wala
Sport to play::	badminto, lawn tennis
Sport to watch::	basket ball saka soccer
Fruit::	watermelon saka apple at banana, ayun buko pa pala
Vegetable::	kangkong
Snack::	pizza
Meal::	hmmmm happy meal...hahahhaa
Restaurant::	lutong macau
Grocery store::	mini stop
~*Have You Ever*~
Gone on a blind date?::	muntik na
Flown in an airplane?::	yeah
Thrown up on an airplane?::	no
Peed in the shower?::	oo
Peed your pants after you hit double digits?::	no
Enjoyed Shakespeare?::	oo naman...lalo na yung midsummer night's dream
Been to the opera?::	no
Been to the theatre?::	yeah
Streaked?::	huh
Seen a streaker?::	ano yun
Been mooned?::	huh?
Mooned someone?::	ano yun?
Flipped someone off?::	hala
Been in a fist fight?::	di pa naman
Been drunk?::	yeah
Had alcohol poisoning?::	no
Been walked in on while you're naked?::	no
Slept in a snowbank?::	walang snow sa pinas eh
Made a snow angel?::	wala ngang snow dito
Lost any teeth?::	yeah
Been in the hospital?::	opo
Been in a major accident?::	yeah
Burnt yourself?::	hmmm opo
Passed out?::	hmmm passed out...passed out sa health setting o sa school?
Watched a soap opera you didn't understand?::	di noh
Prank called 911?::	walang 911 dito
Made fun of emos?::	di ah
Acted like an emo, just to see what it's like?::	no i dont and would not
Cheated on a test?::	oo
Cheated on a boyfriend/girlfriend?::	ay hindi...mabait kaya ako
Lied to get out of trouble?::	yeah
Started a fire?::	no
Roasted a marshmallow?::	haven't
Set a marshmallow on fire?::	no
--How many times?::	di pa nga eh
Wanted to drop out of school?::	dati...nung gs ako
--Did you?::	no
~*Randoms*~
Are you single or dating?::	taken
If single...do you like anyone?::	kulit....
--If so, who?::	hahaha may bf nga ako
--Why?::	may bf nga ako eh
--Do you have a chance with them?::	hahaha kulit ka din
If taken...who?::	si JB po
--How long?::	days pa lang...3 days pa lang
--Are you happy?::	oo naman
Last 4 digits of your phone number::	3859
Your house number::	2090
Why are you taking this survey?::	wala lang...para may blog entry...hahaha
What school do you go to?::	university of santo tomas
--Do you like it?::	oo naman
Your school colours?::	black and gold
Your school teams' name?::	tigers
Ever been on a sports team?::	nung gs ako
--If yes, what was the name of it?::	hmmm wala eh
--Did you enjoy it?::	oo naman
What do you want to be when you grow up?::	a teacher...saka dep ed secretary
--Why?::	pangarap ko yun paki mo ba
Any plans for the near future?::	maka tapo at mahabol ang grade ko for grad honors...kung kaya ko pa ah...
What are your views on capital punishment?::	minsan agree ako minsan hindi...taong walang disposisyon...hahaha
--Nuclear weapons?::	masama yun...
--Euthanasia?::	isa pa to...pero
--The Canadian government?::	huh
--The American government?::	aba ma
--The European Union?::	ayos lang naman...for globalization din yun...tamo ang lakas ng europe ngayon
--The UN?::	kung wala sila siguro ang gulo gulo ng mundo
--Can you tell me who the Secretary-General of the UN is?::	di ko kilala...ay nako ano ba namang historu teacher yan
What was your favourite grade of elementary school?::	huh...di ko gets yung tanong pero kung level memorable yr siguro nung gr6 ako
--Why?::	kasi...secret
What are you wearing right now?::	shorts at shirt
--Any particular reason why?::	nasa bahay lang naman ako anong gusto mo nakagown
What was the last thing you ate?::	mani
If you were a crayon, what colour would you be?::	RED
How are you feeling today?::	ang init...asar
How many keys are on your keychain?::	walang key ang mga key chain ko eh
--What are they for?::	bling bling
What does the room you're in look like?::	blue...kuwartong panlalaki
--Do you like the room?::	ayos lang
Do you own an iPod?::	hindi pero gusto kong magkaroon
--If yes, what kind?::	yung 30gb hahahah
Do you wear glasses or contacts?::	dapt kaso ayoko
What's your view on laser eye surgery?::	mas ok yun kasi nakakairita kaya mag glasses
--Would you ever consider it?::	hindi naman ganon kalala ang mga mata ko
Weirdest thing about your parents::	wala naman lahat naman kami dito weird so parang normal na lang
What did you do this weekend?::	ako...nung sat nasa bahay lang nagpahinga, tas kanina nagpunta kami sa pilot kasi kumpil ng dalawa kong pinsan...tas mamaya gagawa ako ng hw
--Was it enjoyable?::	ayos naman...kaso guilty dami kong nakain
What's your greatest fear?::	maiwanan at mawalan
Your greatest strength?::	ano nga ba...siguro pagiging masayahin ko at plastik sa tunay na nararamdaman...lesser pain kasi
What country do you fear the most::	wala naman
Have you ever been in a third-world country?::	bansa ko third world
--Would you ever want to live in one?::	nakatira na nga ako sa third world eh
What song do you have stuck in your head right now?::	so sick...
Will poverty ever end?::	hanggat may tatsulok at sila ang nasa tuktok di matatapos itong gulo
--Why or why not?::	ayun nga eh
Will we destroy our own planet?::	oo
--How?:	kapag tumalino ang tao at naging abusado
Man--inherently good, or inherently evil?::	inherently good
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just check my friendster profile to understand

Come What May

by Air Supply

When (s)he looks at me

I know the (girl) boy sees things

Nobody else can see

All of the secret fears inside

All of the craziness I hide

(S)he looks into my soul

And reads me like nobody can

And (s)he doesn't judge the man

(S)he just takes me as I am

CHORUS

Come what may, (s)he believes

And that faith is something

I've never known before

Come what may, (s)he loves me

And that love has helped me open a door

Making me love myself a little more

When I turn away

(S)he knows those are the times

There's nothing left to say

Nothing that anyone can do

And so (s)he lets me live it through

And when I'm in my darkest hours of uncertainty

(S)he just simply lets me be

And goes right on loving me

CHORUS

And when it seems my dreams

Have all slipped through my fingers

When they just can't be found

I turn around and there they are

Shining in (her) his eyes

CHORUS

this is what i feel...i just to be dead right now

yeng constantino - cool off

Wag ka munang magalit

ako sana'y pakinggan

Hindi ko balak na ika'y saktan

Hindi ikaw ang problema,

wala akong iba

Di tulad ng iyong hinala

[Refrain]

Sarili ay di maintindihan

Hindi ko malaman,

ano ba ang dahilan ng

Pansamantalang paghingi ko ng kalayaan

Minamahal kita pero kailangan ko lang mag-isa

[Chorus]

Huwag mong isipin na hindi ka na mahal

Sarili ko'y hahanapin ko lang

At ang panahon at ang oras ng pagkawala

Ay para rin sa ating dalawa

Wag ka sanang lumuha, sana'y intindihin

Ito ang dapat nating gawin

Upang magkakilala pa at malaman

Kung tayo ay para sa isa't isa

Wag mong pigilin ang damdamin

Sa aking pagkawala makahanap ka bigla ng iba

Ngunit pakatandaan na mahal pa rin kita

Pero kailangan ko lang mag-isa

(Repeat Chorus)

(Repeat Refrain)

(Repeat Chorus)

im afraid fo taking risks...im sorry im too selfish i know...but i dont want to feel this way anymore...just leave me alone...

something to be happy about

matagal na naming pangarap to ni loveanne...at sana totoo toh...at syet isisiksik ko ito sa sched ko kahit ikamatay ko pa...nyeta

sabi ni ermine...iniinvite daw kami ni ms.roman na kumanta sa concert ng glee club this year...whaaattt as in OMG talaga...i will sing...dance...syet...i miss singing up stage...practicing piece...singing every notes and giving my heart to it...

that is something to be happy about...

t r u e or f a l s e (:
true or false ?
you're a girl:	ah...ano nga ba?syet hirap sagutin...
you're in high school:	FALSE
you own a dog:	false
you're an only child:	false
you've eaten out with a bunch of friends:	true
you're single:	technically true
you're bored:	false
you have an AIM sn:	false
your last cellphone bill was over the top:	false
you get mad easily:	false
you find yourself with a lot of energy at the randomest of times:	true
you currently like someone:	TRUE
you regret something that you've done:	true
others have called you pretty or cute:	true
you like to watch tv:	hmmm pwede or
you like playing with your hair:	false
your hair is brown:	hmmm somewhat true
you have a secret that no one knows:	true
you've kissed someone you shouldn't have:	false
you've had a bf/gf before:	true
you've been dumped before:	true
you shop or have shoped at victoria's secret:	false
in the past month you have watched a movie:	true
in the past month you have cut your hair:	false
in the past month you have gone swimming:	true
in the past month you have gone to a party:	false
you have crashed a party before:	false
you have gone to a party thrown by someone you don't even know:	true
you are huggable:	hmmm wan ko
you like to play video games:	sakto lang
you like/LOVE to shop:	false
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First Loves/Ex's/New
.::First Loves::.
Whats his/her name?:	sheila
Where Did you meet?:	sa mc sa may covered courts
Did his/her family like you?:	ayos naman...ok ako sa mom nya...sobra
Did your family like him/her?:	hmmm di nila nameet eh...pero sa nanay ko hindi..hehehe mahabang kuwento
Do you Still Love him/her?:	as a friend...oo...
Does He/she Still Love you?:	sana as a friend din
Would You give him/her a second chance?:	hmmm mas ok kaming friends eh
.::Ex's::.
Who was your last bf/gf?:	si pau
Was he a good guy/girl?:	oo naman...maalaga at sobrang sweet
Did you guys fight alot?:	hmmm a couple of times pero di naman palagi
Why did you break up?:	hmmm ewan ko...actually its been 2 yrs pero di ko pa rin alam kung bakit
Did he/she cheat?:	hmmm
Did You cheat?:	NO
.::New Bf/gf's::.
Whats his/her name?:	JB
Are You happy?:	oo naman...halata ba?
Do you regret anything?:	wala po
If you could change one thing..what would it be?:	hmmm di ako magpapakaplastik pero yung sitwasyon namin
Do you spend enough time with them?:	hmmm quality time...dibuh?
Is love involved yet?:	oo naman...pero we know for a fact na mas mahal niya ako kaysa sa mahal ko siya
Do you think you'll last?:	sana...as in sana talaga...technically he is or siya yung magiging una kong BF eh
.::MOre Questions::.
How long were you and your first love together?:	3month 1 week and 4days...sakto...
do you regret anything with THEM?:	dun sa pangalawa oo meron
Is there any past relationship that you wished never would have happened?:	hmmm wala naman
Which ex bf do you want to punch right now?:	si pau...hahaha nanggigil ako sa kanya eh
WHO ARE YOU IN LOVE WITH AT THIS MOMENT?:	John Benedict Ludovico
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Ikaw lamang

Di ko maintindihan
Ang nilalaman ng puso
Tuwing magkahawak ang ating kamay
Pinapanalangin lagi tayong magkasama
Hinihiling bawat oras kapiling ka

Sa lahat ng aking ginagawa
Ikaw lamang ang nasa isip ko sinta
Sana’y di na tayo magkahiwalay
Kahit kailan pa man

Ikaw lamang ang aking minamahal
Ikaw lamang ang tangi kong inaasam
Makapiling ka habang buhay
Ikaw lamang sinta
Wala na kong hihingin pa
Wala na

Ayoko ng maulit pa
Ang nakaraang ayokong maalala
Bawat oras na wala ka
Parang mabigat na parusa
Huwag mong kakalimutan na kahit nag-iba
Hindi ako tumigil magmahal sayo sinta

Sa lahat ng aking ginagawa
Ikaw lamang ang nasa isip ko sinta
Sana’y di na tayo magkahiwalay
Kahit kailan pa man

Ikaw lamang ang aking minamahal
Ikaw lamang ang tangi kong inaasam
Makapiling ka habang buhay
Ikaw lamang sinta
Wala na kong hihingin pa
Wala na

last night and today...i realized that no matter what i do everything leads me back to the reality that it is only you i want to be with NOW.maybe what made me decide on doing things all over again is for a fact that I really cant decide on things today...that I have to slow things first...and yes it helped me a lot...NOW i know what i want and a while ago I lift it all to God...and I hope His own time will be the RIGHT time.hope YOU will wait for me...cause I know for sure that I am here PATIENTLY WAITING for you...and the last night call is what I have been looking for all this time.I can say that last night was definitely a proof that you have that thing I have been looking for...thank you for making me laugh and smile last night. and yes I thank YOU (God) for doing things in your own time and in your own design...you definitely have surprising ways to make me realize and grasp things the way you want me to understand your WILL.

elnumero otcho

first day of classes.natulog ako ng maaga at sinigurado ko na nakaalarm yung phone ko dahil naka vacation mode pa talaga ako.tama naman...nakatulog naman ako ng mahimbing at nagising naman sa tamang oras.naisipan kong magbus kanina, siguro dahil na rin first day.heheheh.

dumating ako sa school 6:45 ang aga para sa 7:30 class ko...talk about being excited.tambay muna ako sa pav, tas nakita ko si julian. tas si nomer tapos si abi...nagkuwentuhan lang kami sandali tas umakyat na rin ako.

after a while dumating na rin ang prof ko sa comp lect.after an hour, dinismiss na rin nya kami.next subject...sem ed at buti na lang at si ma'am picadizzo ang teacher namin.wala kaming ginawa sa class niya dahil sabi niya wala pa naman yung equipment tas first day naman daw.saya talaga.so sa time nya nagdaldalan lang kami. maaga din kaming pinalabas ni ma'am picadizzo, at habang naghihintay for the next subject tinignan ko ang uniform namin for practicum.maganda naman...in fairness....compared dun sa mga nauna...sobrang maganda na yung amin.

dahil bagot na kami ni shane pumasok na lang muna kami sa comp lab.pagpasok namin sa loob, nalaman namin na di kailangang alphabetically arrange so namili na kami ng aming computer table.goodluck naman di ko alam kung bakit ko pinili ang number 8.sobrang nakakahiya pa nga, kasi nagpakaselfish ako kay martin at di ako umurong sa comp9.sorry talaga, i have this feeling na i want to prove na di na jinx ang numerong 8 sa akin.and yes...now 8 is a sacred number for me, kasama ng numerong 3.after an hour pumayag na si ma'am ramirez na mag internet na kami.una kong ginawa, magbukas ng multiply...tas trinay kong mag blog kaso di niya binubuksan yung blog ko para makapagpost, same as friendster.so napagdesisyunan kong magbasa na lang ng mga artiks sa peyups.com. isa sa mga artiks na nabasa ko ay ehto... (this maybe a long entry.)

Third Eye
Contributed by istaRr (Edited by amplifier)
Tuesday, January 30, 2007 @ 12:00:17 AM
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Sigurado raw na mararamdaman mo kapag may multong malapit sa iyo. Tatayo ang balahibo sa batok mo... Biglang lalamig ang paligid... Iikot ang tiyan mo... Para kang biglang may kasama. May mararamdaman ka sa paligid mo kahit alam mong ikaw lang mag-isa.

Bata pa lang ako, matatakutin na ako. Takot ako sa dilim, humihina ako kapag mag-isa. Hindi ko rin kayang manood ng mga nakakatakot na palabas sa TV (gaya ng taunang November 1 special ng magandang gabi bayan), o mga pelikula (uso noon ang shake rattle and roll). Ang palagay ko, bakit mo pagdaraanin ang sarili mo sa nakapanlalambot na hilakbot? Mas lalong ayokong makakita, o makaramdam, o makaengkwentro ng multo. Hindi ko yata kakayanin. Baka himatayin ako sa takot. Hindi ko nga maintindihan 'yung mga taong sumasali pa sa mga workshop para buksan ang third eye nila. Bakit di ba? Bakit?! Pero siguro, ako lang talaga 'yun--- kulang sa tapang, liglig ng nerbiyos.

Hindi ko naiwan sa pagkabata ang takot ko sa dilim, at sa multo. Sa paglaki ko, nadagdagan pa nga ang mga takot ko--- tumaba, magka-cancer, bumagsak sa mga klase ko, at marami pang iba. Pero higit sa lahat ng mga ito, ang magmahal at masaktan. Natuklasan ko na hindi gaya ng takot ko sa mga multong ni hindi ko nga alam kung gawa sa hamog, o sa usok, o basta gawa lang ng imahinasyon ko--- mas nakapanghihina, mas nakapanghihilakbot pala ang magmahal at masaktan. Naranasan ko na iyon. Ang magmahal, mawalan, at halos mabaliw sa sakit. Nang mawala ka sa 'kin para akong sira-ulong ayaw maniwala at ayaw tumanggap, parang praning na ipinipilit sa sariling "babalik siya.... babalik siya."

May mga namamatayan ng kapamilya o kaibigan na sa tindi ng pangungulila, hinihiling nila na magmulto ang namayapa na. Hindi na mahalaga kung kahibangan ito--- mabigyan lang ng kahit isa pang pagkakataon na makausap o masilayan man lang ang mahal sa buhay na inagaw na ng kamatayan.

Nang nawala ka, handa akong ibigay ang lahat, ang kahit ano, bumalik ka lang kahit sandali. Kahit sa anong paraan. kahit isang maikling text lang, o e-mail, o friendster message. Maramdaman ko lang na kahit tapos na ang lahat, mahalaga pa rin ako sa iyo. Pero walang dumating. Ni hindi ka man lang nagparamdam. Kahit na parang ritwal ko nang tinatawag ang pangalan mo gabi-gabi, wala. Wala ka na talaga. Naging mas madali nga ang pagtanggap sa pumanaw nating pagkakataon, pero kasabay nito, mas naging mapait naman ang aking pag-aayuno.

Tuloy ang buhay. Kailangan e. Natuto akong magmahal ng iba at unti-unti ring nawala ang lungkot. Naniniwala rin naman akong mayroon akong karapatang maging masaya, at mas gusto kong ngumiti kaysa umiyak. Nariyan naman ang ala-ala mo, nariyan ang pag-ibig na kahit kailan ay hindi ko na maibibigay sa iba bukod sa iyo. Pero sabi nga ng idol kong si Sharon Cuneta, "once you love someone, you never stop loving them. you just love them in newer ways." (mula sa "kung ako na lang sana"). Habang nagmamahal ako ng bagong pag-ibig, patuloy pa rin kitang minamahal. Alam ko iyan. Naroon na rin siguro ang kaalamang dahil patay na nga ang panahon natin sa paningin ni kupido, hindi ko na kailangan buhayin pa ang sakit. Tanggap ko na. Paminsan minsan nga, dinadalaw pa ng diwa ko ang mga nakakalat na lapida ng ating nakaraan. Kapag nakakarating ako sa mga lugar na noo'y nakasama kita, kapag naririnig ko ang mga awit na pinili ko para sa 'ting dalawa--- para na rin akong nagtitirik ng kandila at nag-aalay ng bulaklak sa ala-ala mo.

Hanggang sa nagmulto ka. P*ksh*t.

Ang sabi nila, hindi tumatawid sa kabilang buhay ang mga espiritung may mga hindi pa tapos na misyon sa mundong ito. Pakiramdam nila, may mga transaksyon pa sila sa kanilang buhay na kailangang isara at maisakatuparan. Ang iba nga raw, hindi pa tanggap na patay na sila kaya ayaw pa umalis. palutang-lutang sila, patuloy ang "buhay", ginagawa pa rin ang mga pinagkakaabalahan nila noon. Ang iba naman, sadyang naghahasik ng takot at pangamba. Sadyang gustong makarinig ng mga tili at makakita ng nasindak na mga mukha habang nagsasabog sila ng lagim.

Simpleng text lang, umikot ang mundo ko. Hindi ko alam kung magdiriwang ako o manlulumo. Nakakatuwang nakakatakot e. Sa tagal ng panahon na hinintay kong maramdaman ka, hanggang sa nalimutan ko na nga kung bakit, hindi ko na alam kung ano ang reaksyon ko. Pero, napatunayan ko noon na totoo pala: kapag minulto ka, tatayo ang balahibo sa batok mo, manlalamig ka, iikot ang tiyan mo, at sigurado ka sa presensiya ng multo sa paligid mo.

"Nabuhay" kang muli sa mundo ko. Lagi ka na namang nariyan sa haraya ko. Pa’no, dumalas ka mag-text, tumatawag ka pa, paminsan minsan nagkakape pa tayo’t tumatawa habang nilulunod ang ating mga sarili sa venti mocha frap with mint syrup. Matagal na panahon akong nangulila ako sa iyo, kaya ang saya saya saya ko sa tuwing nariyan ka. Kahit paminsan-minsan. Kahit paunti-unti. Dahil nga mahal naman kita, tinanggap ko ang pagmumulto mo. Sabi ko, wala naman sigurong masama, pakiramdam ko pa nga ang tapang ko. Hinayaan ko nang bukas ang third eye ng puso ko.

Lubos na sana ang magiging kasiyahan ko kung tuluyan ang iyong pagbabalik... pero lagi ka rin namang nawawala. Hindi ko alam kung bakit ginagawa niyong mga multo iyon, parang gustong gusto niyong nagpaparamdam, manggugulat, tapos mawawala naman. Hindi ka naman nagtatagal sa mga dahilang ikaw lang ang nakaaalam. Noong simula hinihintay pa kita lagi, pero nakakapagod rin. Mahirap pala 'yun. Mahirap pala magmahal ng kaluluwa--- hindi kita mahawakan, hindi kita mayakap, hindi kita mahalikan. Malamig na hangin na lang ba talaga ang magiging katumbas ng pag-ibig ko?

Para sa mga taong may kakayahang makakita ng mga espiritu at ibang nilalang, wala raw ibang mas maiging gawin kundi tanggapin ito. Sumpa man o biyaya, hindi na mahalaga. May dahilan lahat ng bagay sa mundo. Baka nga paraan na rin ng Diyos na buksan ang ikatlong mata't ikaanim na pandama ng ilang tao sa mundo... mabigyan man lamang ng pagkakataon ang mga alagad ng kabilang buhay na marinig at maintindihan.

Mahal pa rin kita. Pakiramdam ko, alam mo naman iyon e, kaya ka nga matapang magmulto. Pero magkaiba na tayo ng mundo, marami nang nagbago. Hindi ko maintindihan kung bakit kailangan mong magparamdam gayong wala ka na rin namang kayang gawin na paraan upang tuluyang magbalik, upang muling mabuhay sa mundo ko. Nang-aasar ka lang ba talaga sa pagdalaw mo? Kung hindi, ano ba ang "unfinished business" mo? Ano bang maitutulong ko? Sapat na ba sa iyo ang ganito--- ang mahalin natin ang isa't isa sa magkabilang mundo, sa magkaibang paraan? Iyon lang kasi ang maibibigay ko. At alam ko... hanggang du'n lang rin ang kaya mo.

Patuloy na tatakbo ang buhay ko. At sa tuwing mumultuhin mo ako, ngingiti na lang ako. Oo, tatayo pa rin ang mga balahibo ko sa batok, manlalamig at iikot pa rin ang tiyan ko... Pero hindi na ako matatakot.

Hindi ka totoo.

after kong basahin ang artikulong yan ay napag-isipan kong magbasa ng mga entry na nakadate sa 8...mula june 8...sept 8...dec 8 binasa ko at hinanap...hanggang sa mapunta ako sa artik na ito...

Why Do I Love Her? Contributed by eya (Edited by amplifier) Monday, August 01, 2005 @ 12:01:44 AM Print | Send

Why do I love her and not him, and him, and another him? Well, I can’t bring myself to love them; I can’t bring myself to even try. I had experiences with other hims and what I have with her now is simply different. Way different. Why do I love her? Loving her has no reasons. I just simply do. And that’s just one difference between loving her and loving them hims: loving them has to have reasons because otherwise there’s no point in loving them at all. I love her not because she loves me back. There are others who love me, others who would be willing to love me, others who would care for me. But I don’t need them—it’s her I need. Her warmth, understanding, acceptance, affection, beauty, temperament, mood swings, and flaws—I need all that. I need her. It is only when I’m with her that I am most secure and comfortable. I can be anyone and anything when I’m with her. She accepts the whole of me and she understands my shortcomings. Whether I succeed or fail, I know she’ll be beside me. She lets me grow as a person. I tend to let my world revolve around her and only her sometimes, as if there’s no one else in this world but the two of us. She knows that this isn’t healthy and that we have to have space for personal growth and time for ourselves. A stable relationship calls for stable individuals; and for our relationship to blossom and last for a long time, we both have to continue to develop and to mature together and individually. Most importantly, while we are lovers, we are also best friends. After a tiring day, it would be nice to just talk to her—telling anecdotes, exchanging views, catching up on the going ons of each other’s lives. When all is said and done, she is not only my best friend, she is also my shock-absorber, my angel, my teddybear, my adviser, my inspiration, my motivation—my everything. So understand that there are no reasons why I love her. I just do. ############### To my inspiration: Thank you for everything.

oo nga...for a time sinupa ko na sa sarili kong sa babae lang ako mahuhulog...sa babae lang ako magmamahal...

after nun dahil 5mins na lang at time na clinose ko na yung window ng internet...hanggang sa maisipan kong magbasa ng blog...at sa di sinasadyang pagkakataon...naisipan kong basahin ang blog ni pau.

nagulat ako sa mga nangyari...para siyang multong napatayo ang balahibo ko...kinabahan na natuwa...bago ang lay out ng blog na sobrang tagal ng idle so naisip kong...she's into blogging na ulit.and the next things na nabasa ko...was a surprise..wala na sila...and the article was written on an 8th day...whoah...what's with 8's now a day.at isang entry at ngayon ko nga lang din narealize....*TODAY: manny paquiao won by knockout against solis in the 8th round*

oo...affected ako...sobra...its as if memories came rushing back to me...i hate it much as i hate myself for believing WE will be TOGETHER again.di ko alam ang nararamdaman ko ngayon...pero aminado ako...AFFECTED AKO sa mga nabasa ko sa blog niya...and yes siguro kaya ayokong nasosorpresa...

after that incident...scl9 naman...ayun lesson na agad..tas evaluation bukas...at may hw na dalawang chapters...saya...

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i guess i got pissed of a while ago not becuase i was informed late...it adds up to personal issues that i have with you guys...i guess ill just keep it to myself...and yes happiness cannot be forced...especially when you know to yoursefl there is somewhere else where you can be happy...even if it means you are ALONE

summer....classes

i woke up early this morning...had a weird dream, plus the excitement that i am feeling for i will go back to ust today and see some friends...(nyeta gracia...umaga tayo magkasama umuwi ako di kita nakita...) and yes today was the day i thougth i would say yes...hahaha (but then again...maybe God have some other plans and the time is still just aint right.after my usual morning routine, I ate a sunnyside up for my breakfast and took a bath. I waited for my parents to arrive from their jogging. they came back past seven, then my father decided to drive for me up to simplicity, at least i would not walk that long with my heels, plus i am not use to wearing one even if it is only 2 weeks since I last wore them. At the gate my father noticed that it was still too early so he decided to just drive up to UST...talk about greatness and being lucky.

i arrived at ust at around 8am, talk about population, God there is so many freshmen a while ago at school...and to thick it was only the freshmen who would be housing at the main bldg whose there. and yes, there are the usual people i see around campus wearing those white, maroon,grey,blue and pink uniform. my dad dropped me infront of KFC, while walking near mcdo i saw vince...and i wa surpirsed to see him there...talk about greatness and being lucky again.

when i got to the pav i saw dasas and the rest of the science majors and i came along with them for i do not know where my other friends and blockmates were.we thought we could enroll even though we haven't got our clearance yet, but the person in charge in the enrollment area told us that we have to have a advising form. so we get back to our bldg and saw a long line of students who are getting their clearance. Abi saw me and they just let me through the line. after we got our clearance we went to the dean's office to get the form that we needed for the summer enrollment...and yes we saw the guy I have been crushing on since second semester...talk about greatness and being lucky.

after filling up the form we went to the main bldg to enroll.i was in hurry for jb told me that he would be there at 10:30 and yes it was 10:30 already and i am still fixing up some corrections in my reg form.after a tiring enrollment and so many troubles abi and i went to jollibee dapitan at exactly 11am and yes Jb wasn't there. i felt guilty for the last time we planned to see each other i mad him wait for 4hrs, then here i am 30mins late...late again.we waited for 15mins and i asked abi to get a cab, so that her friend would not be waiting for so long for her. Looking around a motorcycle came and I saw...hahahah Patrick...talk about greatness and being lucky.nad before he left he even smiled and waved hi at me...haaaayyy

I opted for a cheese sticks and C2 just to answer my grumbling stomach...i waited for almost an hour for JB..maybe its a way of telling me what it is to wait so long...and i realized i need to make it up to him.at 12 JB came and i asked if i can eat lunch first. I craved for food at family tree so we went there. upon looking for a place to sit down i saw wilmar and his girlfriend...then i decided to go upstairs for vacant chairs...then I saw pearl, jam, ben, rb, mark,xtian,kat and martin there.we decided just to sit downstairs. when i was thinking of what to eat...banag and marven came...call this what but we're all surprised to see that we are all in the same place.

after eating JB took me home. we rode a bus from espana to commonwealth.when we're walking to our house I saw that our FX is nowhere to be found so I thought that my dad and mom is not at home. JB did not enter the house...(nahihiya daw kapal ng buhok niya eh). I saw my mom taking a nap and i asked if what time will we be leaving for bataan. she told me that she's still waiting for my father.so Jb and i went for a walk and get back home at around 3pm.

woah so many things happened so my father decided that we're leaving at 5am tomorrow.that would be fine so that we have longer stay there and we can do more things...unfortunately that would mean i would not hear from JB for how many days...hahahahaha missing someone kills me...oh well hope we have a fun trip tom...and i wont miss to tell you what happened...

syet hirap pala mag-english...tang ina di ko na to uulitin...

pero masasabi ko lang...masaya ako...hahahah at opo di pa kami...

happy easter

this easter sunday was a bit tiring but
fun for me.gumising ako ng 8am dahil sa
isang weirdong panaginip.pagkatapos
mag-almusal, gumawa ng gawaing bahay,
kumain ng tanghalian, at maligo ayun,
umalis na kami papuntang tagaytay.

sa C5 kami dumaan, dahil nagpahatid si
kuya sa may Christ the King sa may greenmeadows.
nang paalis na kami, nakita namin si
jolo revilla...oo tama si mel, di naman
siya ganon ka guwapo pero sino bang
nabutis niya...haaaayyy minsan talaga,
ang buhay unfair.pagdating namin sa
may CALTEX sa SLEX, stop over muna kami.
ihing ihi na kasi ako.so ayung
pictures at kain, kape at C2 muna kami.
mga 3pm larga na naman kami.

first stop, sa pink sisters. daming tao.
wala na nga space for parking so nauna
na lang muna kami nila nanay, lola at
pauline sa chapel.pagbaba ng sasakyan,
CR ang una kong pinuntahan, ewan ko ba
at sobrang weeweeng weewee ako kanina.
after mag CR eh diretsong chapel at
nagdasal.syempre nagpasalamat ako sa
lahat ng blessings na natanggap ko simula
nung huli kaming umakyat nung dec30
hanggang sa araw na ito.halos lahat ng
hiniling ko ay natupad dun. katulad na
lang ng pag-pasa ni mel sa entrance test,
na magtagal pa sana si kuya at si ate dekay.
na makagraduate si mel,mailayo kami
sa sakit at disgrasya.ang maging Dean's
list ako(kung tama ang computations ko...
pero malamang naman..heheh ang yabang
pero basta tignan mo na lang grades ko)
at makita ko na sana yung lalaking
mabait at mamahalin at rerespetuhin at
tatanggapin ako sa kung sino ako.after
ng prayer ko, ayun sumulat uli ako sa
mga hiling ko.yung mga wishes ko eh di ko
na ikekwento no.

next, nagpunta kami ng Lourdes para magsimba.
at katulad sa pink sisters, wala ding
parking space...so umikot pa si tatay
para makabwelo. tamang tama patapos pa
lang yung mass.sakto pagbalik namin,
pasimula pa lang yung mass.at guess what,
dalawang artista uli ang nakasabay namin.
si nova villa at ces quesada.oh well,
star studed din pala ang araw na ito.

after ng mass eh nagdinner kami sa Leslies.
yeah...nakalimutan kong nasa strict diet ako.
hahaha bukas na lang uli...ang sarap ng
kinain namin.sisig, bulalo,seafood bicol
exprexx at fried chicken.sarap talaga.
samahan mo pa ng malamig na simoy ng
hangin ng tagaytay.bago kumain, pictures
uli.after kumain nagpunta muna kami
dun sa may view ng taal at nagpalamaig.
tas may isang batang lalaki sinabunutan si
pauline.buti na lang yung kapatid ko di
marunong gumanti.

mga 7:30 na kami nagsimulang lumarga
pauwi.tas stop over sa caltex at Shell
dahil ewan ko ba...dahil ata sa buko
juice na ininom ni mel at panay ang
weewee nya.at ayun...nakarating kami ng manila
ng mga 10.tas hinatid namin si lola
at ayun uwi na.

haaayyy naasar na ako...di pa rin ako
kinokontact ni JB...eh...pano yan
sa martes na yung date namin...
haaayyy John Benedickt...nasang
lupalop ka ba????

selfish

i wanted to keep you...to be there by my side...i love the way you took care of me, especially the time when i was sick with fever. you are always there to make me laugh.i never told you these and i know there is no way for you to know.i always tell you that why did you not came sooner, maybe at that time my heart is still free to return the love you have for me. you told me you will do anything just to have me...but i told you I love him so much and i want us to be just friends.

i want to keep you...to be here by my side...but as time passes by being with you makes me guilty of having the two of you in my life.i have to choose between the two of you..and losing one of you will be a pain in my heart.

i want to keep you...to be here by my side...but i chose him instead of you...i just dont want him to get hurt...and i realized i love him so much that it would really hurt me a lot to let him go.i know it would also hurt you, but i know your too strong to understand my situation.

i want to keep you...to be here by my side...i could have said this a while ago ang maybe, just maybe you'll let go of that pride and be happy for the fact that we still have each other as FRIENDS....

gimik

this day was a bit tiring but if did not go with my family i could have missed so much.pumunta kaming la salle kanina, para ihatid si mel para magpass ng confirmation niya dun.actually, ginawa lang nila yun para lang may sigurado ng school si mel next school year. btw he passed ECE sa lasalle at wait listed siya sa ateneo.mas trip niyang mag-aral sa ateneo, kaso kung biglang hindi igrant sa kanya yung slot wala na siyang magagawa he just have to accept na he would enter la salle.eh ano naman diba?ECE pa rin yun at La salle pa rin yun.after namin sa taft, pumunta kaming SM north para idrop ako dahil last check up ko na sa facial...whaaaattt nagpapafacial ako?oh well nanay ko kasi makulit, dinamay ako sa kaartehan kaya yun.after a while my family decided to eat lunch there kasi nga naman sandali lang naman kasi yung check up, and i bet walang katao tao sa lets face it.nag-lunch kami sa food court.after sa SM north, pumunta kami sa bahay ng ninang ni pauline, para maghatid ng mga pasalubong ng tatay ko.nung papunta na kami sa st joseph village sa tandang sora, bigla akong may naalala.naalala ko ang isang lalaki sa aking panahon ng kabataan. oh well asar ako nun, dahil inaasar ako ng buong bus sa kanya...eh hello pangit pangit ko...(hanggang ngayon pa rin naman)tapos ang taba taba ko pa nun...at isa pa mabait lang talaga siya dahil nakuha niya akong kausapin, tas ayun na inasar na ako ng inasar ng mga ka school bus ko.nung nasabi ko yun, biglang natawa si kuya, it turned out kasi nung hs siya naging magkabanda sila ni kuya.oh well sabay asar naman ng mga magulang ko sa akin.that time i felt na makikita ko siya. naman, maliit lang yung village para di siya makita.nung nagpark na kami sa tapat nung park, di na kami sumunod nila kuya, kasi sabi naman nila tatay sandali lang daw sila...pero matagal eh. at dahil hapon na nun, natulog muna ako. nung bigla akong nagising, nakita ko na lang na may kausap na si kuya na nakaputi. hindi si mel dahil naka blue siya...nyeta..kausap na niya yung lalaking binanggit ko kanina.pagdating nila tatay, sa sasakyan, ikinuwento agad ni kuya na nakita nga niya yung lalaki.tas ayun graduate na siya sa la salle at he is now in med school sa ateneo...syempre sabay buyo naman ng nanay ko na siya na lang. ano ba yun...tas biglang hirit ni kuya na may gf na yun at nasa med school din pero nasa la salle dasma.after a while sa pagkakasawa nila sa pang-aasar sakin tumigil din.after sa tandang sora pumunta kaming MOA...hahahah anong ginawa namin dun...oh well tumingin ng sunset at kumain ng bibingka...at in fairness masarap yung kinain namin...after 2 hrs of just chilling there...uwi na rin. kaya eto nakaharap sa monitor...tinatiyagang magkwento para di
ko maisip ang gumugulo sa utak ko...peste

start of my 2nd week of vacation

oh well...im starting my april with a....tears...saya no...tears?bakit

sira 3230 ko...nyeta
mauubusan na naman ako ng pera nito
tapos i made someone feel hurt a while ago
at di pa ako gumagaling sa lagnat

san ka pa...haaaayyy san ka pa....