managinip...mangarap...abutin...

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Dahil matatapos na naman ang isang taon, nandito na naman ako para balikan ang mga pangyayaring humubog, nagpasaya, nagpalungkot at nagpaloka sa papaalis na taon. Tara sabay natin itong balikan at muling tumawa at maiyak (maging malaya sa pagbibigay kumento sa mga pangyayari)

1. Mukha nang naglalakad na zombie dahil sa puyat... late na nga uuwi dahil sa mga meeting sa COMELEC at pagtuturo sa manila high.

2. Kinakabahan dhail candidate para ma F.A dahil sa dami nang beses na nalate... san ka naman kasi nakakita ng call time na 6:30.

3. Gumagawa ng mga lesson plan na para sa compilation lang, biruin mo mga 27 na iba’t ibang lesson plan...

4. Galit na sila sayo dahil lang sa issue ng F.A

5. Para sa kanila pangit ka... eh ano naman mas pangit ka kaya.

6. Kahit anong plano di naman natutuloy lalo na yung mga taong walang konsiderasyon.

7. Ang mga tao kapag may kailangan sayo mabait, pero kapag wala na kung anu-ano nang sinasabi sa likod mo... leche

8. Kaliwa’t kanan na trabaho... org, demo teaching, practicum may prof ka pang di pumapasok pero nag-assign ng reporting, meron ka ring prof na pareport lang ng pareport kahit nandiyan at present.

9. Hindi mo maiwasang magkacrush kahit na student mo pa.

10. Kapag mahal ka ng mga student mo, sila gagawa para sayo.

11. Mahirap pala kabahan lalo na kapag magdedemo teaching ka tas may mga gago kang student sa klase mo.

12. Magugulat ka na lang, ang mga student na halos di nagsasalita magpapakitang gilas.

13. Pagkatapos ng matinding kaba, kakabahan ka pa rin sa mga tanong nang mga estudiyante mo.

14. Mahirap mahuli ang sikreto lalo na nga mga student mo.

15. Kung matindi magselos ang karelasyon, mas grabe ang mga students...as is sobra mgaselos.

16. Mahirap talaga kapag may favourite class ka, mahirap silang iwan na di kaiiyak.

17. Sabi ko di ako iiyak...sabi ko lang yun.

18. One down 3 to go.

19. Sobrang saya kapag marami kang naaaccomplish lalo na kung gagraduate ka na.

20. Ang nakakainis lang kapag may prof na nagfefeeling dahil pakiramdam nya wala kang paki sa klase nya.

21. Pero kahit ganun, Masaya pa rin lalo na kapag ipagtatanggol ka ng prof na talagang nakakakilala sayo.

22. Sorry naman, report ko yun eh bakit ba nangengealam ka.

23. Mas inuna pa ang org bago mag-apply ng trabaho.

24. Gumawa lang ng resume dahil uso.

25. Dahil fresh graduate di na namili ng trabaho kahit crew pa sa mcdonalds.

26. Ang sabi ko lilibot lang ako dahil busy sa org, pero nagpasa din ng resume.

27. Kaya di pinapasin, all girls faculty pala sila.

28. Kakapasa lang ng resume may schedule na ng exams.

29. Pagkatapos ng isang taon, nakita mo siya ulit, this time bading na siya

30. Inabot ng 10pm sa school dahil nagtatatak ng balota.

31. Huwag kakain kahit inaya ka pa, malalaman mo na lang para sa ibang tao pala yun nagbayad ka pa

32. Minsan magugulat ka na lang mangyayari ang mga di inaasahan.

33. Iba talaga kapag fourth year ka na, may mga issue na di mo akalaing nangyayari pala.

34. Ikaw ang nag-organize ikaw pa ang masama... ang saklap.

35. Pano ba uusad ang student council na may secretary lang.

36. Wala pang resulta alam na nang lahat.

37. Big deal ba kung di sila nanalo.

38. Ako lang ang comelec chairman pero di ako ang majority ng botante.

39. Minsan mahahanap mo ang tulong sa mga taong di mo inaasahan.

40. Bago ka magexams para sa trabaho magbibilang ka muna ng boto.

41. Pagkatapos ka nilang yayain ikaw na lang mag-isa.

42. San ka naman nakakita ng naghahanap ng trabaho na hinatid pa ng nanay at kapatid.

43. Sangkatutak na psychological exams bago ka makahanap ng trabaho.

44. Pagkapasa ng test may schedule ka na para sa HR interview.

45. Akala mo tapos na hindi pala, magsisimula pa lang.

46. Botohan lang pero pati sa dean isa kang malaking issue.

47. I just want to have my life back as a normal student mahirap bang ibigay yun.

48. Nakakakaba pala kapag hinahabol mo ang oras para sa isang job interview.

49. Masayang mag-antay ng prof na alam naman nang lahat na di papasok

50. Maraming nag-aaway away dahil lang sa eleksyon.

51. “wala ka naming magagawa kaya wag mo nang problemahin”

52. Pagkatapos nyong kabahan para sa finals, absent ang prof

53. Wala nang tatamad pa sa prof na pati questions sa finals students ang gagawa.

54. Minsan akala mo wala na...pagkatapos ng ilang araw ng kaba at pagdarasal iinterviewhin ka na ng coordinator.

55. Nakakatuwang bumalik sa dating school hindi para bumisita pero para maghanap ng trabaho

56. Nakakatamad mag-apply kapag sobrang haba ng application form may essay pa

57. Dahil sa sobrang lapit nakakatamad tuloy mag-apply.

58. Habang papalapit ng papalapit ang pagtatapos mas lalo mong gusting wag na itong matapos

59. Pagkatapos mong gumawa ng questions at kabahan sa exams, sa mismong araw ng finals sasabihin ng prof nyo na wala na lang finals... (kainis talaga)

60. Magugulat ka na lang kasi di mo ineexpect na English pala ang medium of instruction

61. Kulang na lang umiyak at magpawis ako ng dugo sa pagdarasal bago ang demo teaching

62. Naranasan mo na bang lumabas ang puso mo sa kaba... ako oo

63. Pagkatapos ng demo masayang pati mga students ginudluck ka J

64. Pagkatapos ng demo interview naman sa principal...ano ba yun.

65. Kapag hinihingan ka na ng medical, sss, tin at kung anu ano pa tanggap ka na tsongs.

66. Nakakapagod din pa lang mag-ayos ng graduation ng mga bata.

67. 6pm ko na nalamang “YOU’RE HIRED”

68. Hanggang dulo di pa rin sila nagsasawang awayin ka.

69. Ang lalaking pumapatol sa babae ay bakla... ang pangit mo naming bakla.

70. Iba talaga ang feeling kapag natapos mo na ang kolehiyo... nakakatakot na

71. Dahil sa isang pangako pagkatapos ng marcha uuwi para sa patay.

72. After how many years nakasakay uli ng eroplano.

73. Malalaman mo na lang may kamag-anak kayong baliw (tsimis lang yun)

74. Nakakatuwang malamang may nagpadala ng sulat para mag-apply ka sa kanila.. (******)

75. Kung may kamag-anak kang baliw, meron ka na ring apo (eto totoo na)

76. Pagkatapos ng patay may kasal

77. Lola na nga ako magiging tita pa

78. Makukuha mo bang ikasal na walang ang tatay mo?

79. Unang araw sa trabaho late

80. Matutong magtanong para di ka naman over dressed

81. Pinakaimportanteng tanong sa trabaho “may boyfriend ka na ba”

82. At kung wala pa lahat sila papalaklapak ( teka sa faculty yan ah)

83. Dahil sa isang ngiti...

84. 500 pesos a day? Woah

85. Para makatipid bumili ng gown sa divisoria

86. Kahit imposible gagawin ng tatay para maipakita nya kung gano ka niya kamahal

87. Minsan kailangan mo lang din talagang mag-isip, baka di sila ang selfish kundi ikaw

88. Joyful thanksgiving

89. Bigla kang naging tahimik... kakaiba

90. Iba kapag wala na ang isa

91. Sa unang araw poker face ka dapat

92. First impression ay masungit

93. Minsan akala mo lang yun...yun pala magkakasundo rin kayo.

94. Dahil sa isang picture naiba ang pagtingin mo sa kanya.

95. Walang overtime pay para sa mga teachers tandaan mo yun

96. Ayaw mong maipit kaya wala kang magawa kundi sila na lang ang iwasan

97. Nakakatawang isiping magfiefieldtrip kayo pero gumagawa pa kayo ng TOS

98. Dahil sa katahimikan ang iniisip nila ayaw mo sa kanila

99. Isa sa mga pinakaayaw kong gawin ay magalit

100. Wag kang magagalit lalo na kung pagkatapos mong manermon ay magkakaroon ng people power sa labas ng faculty rm para humingi ng sorry

101. Wag na wag kang magbibiro sa nilalagnat, ikaw ang gagawa ng LPng siya dapat ang nakatoka

102. Nakakatakot ang ideang baka bukas wala na ang iyong nanay

103. Nag-alala siya... yikee!!!

104. Dahil sa nawawalang takip ng eraser meron siyang ice cream

105. “walang masamang tao”

106. Kahit anong plano, kung wala ang puso mo palpak pa rin

107. Birthday na puro may sakit ang mga tao

108. Lahat gagawin nya maging masaya lang ang birthday mo, kasama na ang pagtakot sa mga students mo

109. Una sa lahat teachers kami alam naming kung paano gumawa ng test... nakakainis ang daming mali, naulit pa ang tanong.

110. “pasensya na po wala pong tawag ang PRC tungkol sa corrections” “eh pano naming toh sasagutan?” “kayo na lang pong bahala” grrrrrr

111. Mahal kita di mo kayang suklian dapat mo rin ba akong iwasan?

112. Habang tumatagal mas lalo kitang nagugustuhan, habang nagugustuhan kita mas lalong tumatagal ang overtime

113. Pano mo iiwasan kung kayo ang lagging magkasama

114. 10am nagchecheck lang ng test paper... sa faculty rm

115. Wag kang magagalit nang may dala kang OHP panigurado matatapilok ka

116. Nag-iiwan ka na rin ng candy at chocolate sa table nya... wtf

117. Hinding hindi mo gugustuhing makita ka ng mga student mo sa mall lalo na kapag kasama ang nanay nya

118. Pagkatapos ng ilang gabing di makatulog... syet pwede na akong maghboyfriend nanay!!!

119. Kaya ka nga nagtatrabaho sa gobyerno eh... leche

120. Gusto mo nang hilahin ang oras para wala nang pasok

121. 300 para sa picture 50 pesos para sa bulaklak ano yun negosyo

122. Salamat sa hindi kahiya hiyang resulta ng board exams

123. Siguraduhin mong malakas ka para magbuhat ng 3kilong bigas

124. Mahirap umuwi ang teacher lalo na kapag December

125. Hindi kasya ang fortuner sa kalye ng J. Ruiz

126. Habang tumatagal nauunawaan mo na kung bakit ganun na lang ang pagtingin mo sa kanya

127. Naunawaan ko na rin ang kantang “passenger seat”

128. Proximity is not a reason to love a person

129. Akala mo din a kayo makukumpleto

130. Girl na girl... hahaha love it

131. Masaya magpasko lalo na kung kumpleto kayo

132. Mukha ka ng rabbit

133. Nakakatuwang maalala ang mga bagay bagay lalo na nung high school ka pa

134. Iba na kapag apat na taon na kayong di nagkita… parang IBANG TAO NA SIYA

135. Laptop!!!!

136. Wag padadala baka masaktan ka

137. “tapusin na natin ang biruan nakakapagod na eh”

138. Sasagutin mo ba ang isang persistent na manliligaw kahit di mo naman siya mahal?

139. Eto ako ngayon... bukas ano naman kaya

Masasabing maraming nangyari noong 2008... hahaha tama loveanne boyfriend na lang ang kulang... pero bakit hahanapin ang wala kung marami naming meron na dapat ipagpasalamat!!!!

Sa lahat... umaakyat at bumababa ang buhay subukan naman nating tumalon at magsaya... tara sama sama uli nating tahakin ang 2009... happy new year!!!!

2007...rewind

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heto na naman ako...sa taon taong kong ginagawa...halika na at balikan natin ang
nakalipas ng taon at ang mga aral na natutunan ko sa bawat panahon.

1. ang mga dasal ay dinidinig at sinasagot sa takdang panahon
2. kung para talaga kayo sa isa't isa, tadhnan na rin ang gagawa ng paraan.
3. sa chatroom specifically sa irc laging nagsisimula ang lahat.
4. huwag mag cram para di ka matabla ng bakla.
5. huwag maniniwala kaagad.
6. akala mo lalaki babae pala
7. kahit nangako ka na, minsan di pa rin maiwasang mabali.
8. mahirap mamili sa pagitan ng isang lalai at isang nagpapanggap na lalaki.
9. huwag mantrip ng ka EB baka magsungit.
10. tignan mo muna ang pic ng kachat/katext bago makipag EB baka mabigla ka mas maganda pa
siya sayo.
11. minsan nakakatanga kapag ang katarayan at kasungitan ay nasa iisang tao lang.
12. seryoso na ang tibo kapag niloloadan ka na.
13. mahirap ang maraming manliligaw dalawang telepono ang lagi mong hawak.
14. naiinlove ka ng di mo namamalayan.
15. pati pinsan nya pinagseselosan mo na.(teka hindi ba't di ako selosa?)
16. cute pala ako kapag nagseselos (ayon yun sa kanya)
17. masarap kapag sinisimulan at tinatapos ng isang tao ang araw mo.
18. laging maging handa, hindi mo alam kung kailan ka nya gustong makita.
19. huwag magcicivilian kahit na college week nyo, pag-aawayan nyo yun ng kadate mo.
20. dapat naappreciate mo rin ang sports ng kadate mo para di nyo pag-awayan.
21. wag magpapakita ng grades sa kadate mo, masasabihan ka nyang weird.
22. laging tumingin sa ilaim ng pinto ng cubicle, baka mamaya antay ka ng antay wala naman
palang tao..at oo pag-aawayan nyo yun ng kadate mo.
23. wag maging matagal sa cr magagalit ang kadate mo
24. wag ka ring magpapaganda para sa kadate mo kasi iisipin nyang lumalandi ka sa iba.
25. makipagsweetan sa lugar na wala kang kakilala para di ka pag-isipan ng masama.
26. umuwi na kapag sinabi ng kadate mo.
27. ang matinong babae daw, alasinko pa lang nasa bahay na.
28. siguraduhing mong makaksakay kayo kaagad dahil mag-aaway kayo ng di mo inaasahan sa harap
ng mga kakilala mong hindi alam na pumapatol ka.
29. huwag maiinlove sa taong broken hearted
30. mahirap mabasted sa araw ng valentine's day.
31. huwag magtatanong kung alam mong hindi mo magugustuhan ang isasagot sayo.
32. kung burara ka sa gamit bihado mawawala ang cellphone mo sa araw ng bilangan.
33. nag-iiba ang ugali ng mga taong tumatakbo sa posisyon.
34. akala mo lahat ay naayon na sa plano sabay mabibigla ka.
35. kahit eleksyon na di pa huli ang lahat.
36. natutpad ang mga pangarap ng mga taong marunong humingi at mangarap.
37. di masayang matulog sa semento ng org rm.
38. pagkatapos ng matagal na bilangan bulagta sa kama.
39. huwag mag-papaalam manood ng sine dahil siguradong di ka nya papayagan... (di pa kayo
sa lagay na yan.
40. siguro nga di talaga ako para sa tibo.
41. sa isang bus ride nagkakaayos ang mga taong di magkasundo.
42. masarap ipagbaon lalo na kung puro mga paborito mo ang baon nya para sayo.
43. minsan bigla mo na lang narerealize na gusto mo na ang taong di mo inaaakalang
magugustuhan mo
44. kapag kailangan ka ng X mo...bigla na lang siyang tatawag sayo.
45. anong gagawin mo kapag nalaman mong ang X mo balak mag-aral sa school mo...at sa college
mo...ako naexcite ako.
46. kapag talagang mahal ka ng isang tao, hihintayin ka nya mula 5-9 ng gabi sa labas ng
jolibee kahit umuulan.
47. wag pupunta sa mga madidilim na lugar...di mo alam ang mga mangyayari.
48. lasapin ang bawat araw ng bakasyon lalo na kung wala ka nun dahil sa summer classes.
49. patience is a good virtue.
50. you cannot have evrything.
51. dahil sa pang-aasar ng iba, naiinlove ka na.
52. suguraduhing may cellphone ang susundo para di kayo magkasalisi.
53. kahit anong pagtatago kita pa rin.
54. masarap yung feeling na mahuhuli ka.
55. mahirap ang klase na 7-3 na walang break.
56. bakit ba ang fave teacher ko ang laging kinaaasaran ng lahat.
57. true love waits.
58. kahit papaano aasa ka eh, maghihintay kahit wala naman talaga.
59. you do not find another person to complete you, rather you look for someone who is
whole like you who would be complementary and would bring out the best in you- that's love.
60. dahil makulit siya sinagot mo.
61. kung kailan may bf ka na, saka naman babalik ang X mong tibo na inantay mo.
62. hahahaha 8
63. trust your instinct
64. kahit malayo naaalala ka pa rin nya.
65. sa unang araw bantayan ang mga kamay.
66. di mo napapansin pero lagi ng nangangamusta ang X mo.
67. kapag trabaho trabaho walang kaibikaibigan.
68. ang tulong dumarating sa mga taong di mo inaasahan at sa panahong di ka nakatingin.
69. kapag ayaw ng mga kaibigan mo makinig...wag matigas ang ulo.
70. kahit X mo na basta humingi ng tulong gagawin mo ang lahat para sa kanya.
71. bakit maraming magjowang bading sa gateway?
72. kahit naman di nakastore ang number nya memorize mo pa rin.
73. masarap abutin ng 12midnight sa arcade.
74. nakakapagod pa lang magpicture ng buong org.
75. nakakatuwang magsuot ng teacher's uniform.
76. nakakaasar kung kailan ayaw mo na saka mo malalamang break na sila.
77. isang text lang...babalik ka na naman.
78. kahit na naglet go ka na...iniwan mo na nga siya eh...ikaw pa rin ang babalik ilang
segundo pagkatapos mong iwan.
79. nung una paglalaruan mo lang kaso wala nainlove ka na.
80. ayos lang may boyfriend siya may boyfriend ka...pero naglalandian kayo sa isa't isa.
81. pagkatapos ng hirap asa top 10 ka.
82. masaya yung X mo sa tagumpay mo yung bf mo parang wala lang.
83. anong pakiramdam nang makipagkita sa X pagkatapos ng 2 taon...ang totoo naexcite ako.
84. di naman kayo bakit nagsusubuan kayo?
85. nakakatuwang isiping inihatid mo sa pag-uwi ang kalandian mo pag-uwi mo sa bahay nandun
na ang bf mo.
86. pinabukas mo sa bf mo ang inbox mo kahit alam mong "mahal ko" ang pangalan ng X mo na
puro messages nya ang nakastore.
87. kahit na nilalagnat ang bf mo di pa rin siya nagsalita sa nakita nya.
88. kapag sinabi ng kapatid mong umakyat ka, umakyat ka.
89. wala na alam mong iiwan mo na ang bf mo dahil sa kanya.
90. kayo na ulit kahit na alam mong papatayin ka ng mga kaibigan mo.
91. basta kapag mahal mo, ipaglalaban mo..
92. hindi nakakatuwang sumayaw sa harap ng maraming tao.
93. masarap yung feeling na ihahatid ka nya sa umaga tas aantayin matapos ng class.
94. wala ng mas sasarap pa sa pakiramdam na katabi mong matulog ang taong mahal mo.
95. masarap magturo belive me.
96. minsan wrong timing ang supervising lalo na kung galit ka sa klase mo.
97. masaya pa rin ang birthday kahit classmates mo lang ang kasama mo.
98. haaayyy dont surprise me...baka kayo ang masorpresa na alam ko na ang sorpresa nyo.
99. sa araw na magkasama kayo saka kayo magkakasagutan ng nanay mo.
100. kaya mong isuko ang lahat para sa taong mahal mo.
101. masara ang pakiramdam kapag sa panahong lugmok ka...nandiyan ang taong mahal mo para
damayan ka.
102. bakit ganon...kahit wala naman siyang ginagawa, nasasaktan ka.
103. magreretreat ka na lang trabaho pa rin ang nasa isip mo.
104. kahit alam mong kasalanan nya, bakit parang ang lumalabas ikaw ang may sala.
105. sa retreat nasasabi ng mga tao ang lahat ng gusto nilang sabihin sa isa't isa.
106. ako sa retreat ko narealize kung gano ko siya kamahal
107. di nakakatuwang makipaghiwalay sa araw ng monthsary nyo...sa mcdo mo pa ginawa.
108. nagagawa mo ang mga imposible para sa minamahal mo.
109. hindi palaging kayo ang panalo.
110. sana niyakap ko na siya ng araw na yun...hindi mo alam baka yun na ang huli.
111. nung umaga sweet lang siya sayo...ilang oras lang di na kayo ok.
112. di na kayo magkasundo, simpleng bagay pinag-aawayan nyo.
113. panahon ba talaga ng break up ang birthmonth ko?
114. wag mong babaliktarin ang sitawayson..
115. lagi talagang madumi ang pulitika.
116. isang linggo ka ng di kinakausap...panigurado magbebreak kayo.
117. aba binati ka pa ng happy monthsary mantakin mo nga naman...ikaw naman si gaga umaasa.
118. timing na pag-iyak araw ng grad pic mo.
119. kahit na ba broken hearted ka maganda ka pa rin sa grad pic basta magpapakasaya ka lang.
120. nagpapainom ka ng walang sa panahon.
121. malandi talaga ako kapag nakainom...sorry na.
122. sa di inaasahang panahon bigla na lang babalik ang dating nanliligaw sayo.
123. muntikan ng magkabf dahil sa kalasingan buti na lang prumeno.
124. pumasok ng may hangover partida may quiz pa kami sa araw na yun.
125. isang text lang nya...ayan nanaman umasa na naman.
126. dahil sa goodmorning nagload ng isang daan.
127. ganun lang kadali di na raw kasi nya alam kung masaya pa siya...tangaina sabihin na
lang yung totoo.
128. wala na akong pakialam kung marinig pa nila pero masakita eh.
129. minsan ang nakakaunawa sayo yung kapatid mong 3 yrs old.
130. kahit anong tago mo halata pa rin kahit pa ng mga students mo.
131. paunti unti lang magiging ok ka rin pagdating ng araw.
132. ang mga kaibigan mo pa rin kahit na di mo sila sinunod nandiyan pa rin para sayo.
133. ang mga nakakamove on lang ay ang mga taong pinipiling magmove on.
134. pray it works.
135. sa divi mo narerealize ang mga bagay bagay.
136. sa panahong lumilimot ka saka ka liligawan.
137. ang nanliligaw sayo ang gigising sa ideyang pilit mong ikinukubli sa sarili mo.
138. makukulong ka talaga kung magpapakulong ka.
139. ok din palang maging kaibigan ang X ng X mo.
140. masaya maka move on lalo na kapag isang buwan ka lang inabot...nagmamature ka na nga
talaga.
141. kahit na maraming nanliligaw gugustuhin mo rin talagang mapag-isa.
142. may 3 month period pala...sa palagay ko di niya alam yun...2 linggo pa lang kaming break
its complicated na ang status nya.
143. minsan kailangan mong tanggaping makakasama mo ng 3 buwan ang x crush mo...at kayong
dalawa lang from 1-7pm
145. nakakatuwa sa off camp...maraming guwapo kaso bakla.
146. totoo ang karma.
147. masakit marinig sa taong gusto mo na hinding hindi siya magkakagusto sayo.
148. love moves in mysterious ways.
149. ang pasensya may hangganan talaga.
150. habang tumatagal mas lalo mo siyang nakikilala
151. dahil sa off camp dumating ang panahong di ko na alam ang itsura ng tv
152. masarap nagkacrush...syet namiss ko yun sa mahabang panahon.
153. cute talaga siya sorry na.
154. hinay lang baka kindatan ka ng student mo.
155. may mga klase talaga na ang weird pero kinakabahan ka.
156. hindi mo man lang naisip kabarkada mo na ang isa sa mga rumarampa.
157. poster please!
158. sweet sila...sorry pero cant help but to compare.
159. ngayon ko na lang uli naramdamang mafrustrate at the same time maging masaya.
160. mas karapatdapat mahalin ang mga taong hindi dinedeserve mahalin.
161. tiyaga lang yan.
162. ang importante nag-eenjoy ka.
163. kapag pagod kang tunay kahit anong alarm di ka nagigising.
164. kapag nakita mo na siya...ang saya..ano pa kaya kapag kinamusta ka na niya.
165. likod lang niya at boses di ka na nakatulog
166. minsan sa mga taong di mo inaasahan, sila pa ang magpapasaya sayo.
167. masarap makipag -away kahit na alam mong may memo ka pagkatapos.
168. diner dash= memo
169. masarap mamili, lalo na kung para sayo...heheh shopping
170. maturity comes with responsibilty.
171. di ako ang taong dapat nyong ginagalit.
172. kaya kong manlaglag ng di mo inaasahan.
173. nagkabf ako ng dahil sa biruan
174. bakit ang mga tao ang bilis maniwala sa chismis
175. di ko ugaling makipagplastikan pasensya ka...
176. Lord...I miss my friends... hope you know what i mean

marami pa lang nangyari sa akin ngayong 2007....at ngayong 2008 ano naman kaya ang
madadatnan ko...hmmmm excited na ako...

sa lahat ng mga naging bahagi ng 2007 ko...salamat sa lahat ng pagmamahal at ngiti, sa mga
nasaktan ko...sorry di na yun mauulit...sa mga nakasakit sa akin.,..BELAT!!!hehehe
mahal na mahal ko kayo...see yah at 2008...GRADUATION NA!!

dec 3

2007-12-04T01:18:00.000+12:00

ewan ko ba... pero tuwing pumapatak ang araw na ito laging dragging para sa akin.parang ayoko lang kumilos gusto ko lang huminto at bumalik sa nakaraan.sa nakaraang hindi ko na mababalikan.
two things happened in the same date. first one is this is the day when pau first broke up with me...3yrs ago and the day when i gave back the bracelet that andria gave to me as a birthday gift 8 yrs ago. everything is too painful for me to remember, but as I walked home a while ago, I realized that these painful experiences made me the kind of person I am today.
I always believe that it is not the event that must be remembered but the lessons that was taught by the journey. With them, I learned that people must not be taken for granted. That pride will leave you nowhere. That when someone means a lot to you, dont push them away for being afraid that one day you will wake up without them by your side. I know that I cant bring the hands of time back to these events, but I know for sure that in my hands I can have a new start, a new clock to begin with. I may regret what had happened in the past, but as for now all I can do is to forgive myself and to take the journey again with a new disposition in life.

missing you

2007-11-03T00:24:00.000+12:00

it started last wed,the first thing that pop out of my head was her.(oh before i forget, this entry is not about pau, baka mamaya siya na naman ang maisip eh) I really don't know, maybe its because of the song or maybe, its quite a while since we last talked to each other.By the way she is now working in Singapore, she has been there for almost a year now. The last message she sent me was last August, I told her I just thought of sending her a message.After that she did not replied.I guess she was busy working, and I busy with my own life.But last Wednesday was kind of weird. I was really thinking of her the whole day. Even at the time when Pau texted me about closure and all, I gave a short thought about it, but did not bother after my friends told me not to reply anything. After an hour of giving thought to what Pau texted, I began thinking about her again.I really do miss her.I dont know maybe because I never met a woman so vibrant and spunky as her.Like what a friendster survey asked: "anong gusto mo yung makulit o masungit?yung madaling magalit o pakialamera" I thought I can have all that attitude with one person, and that is her. The song chasing cars runs through my head all the time. Im getting confused until i thought about what's happening and why am I thinking about her until I realized some things.

I never imagined what I have been missing out for the last four years of my life.I was so stuck in my past while everyone around me is moving forward.I was so busy fixing and making my life right for pau, hoping that she will be back. Everything was planned, even stopping some feelings for other people. I was so busy putting things in order for someone who's just there to ruin it all again, that I never thought that other people maybe worthy of my love and attention. That other people who are far better than her. I may have loved her way back, but was just afraid of pau coming back and I wont handle the situation. I could have returned everything she was giving me but I was held back by a promise. And now she's so far away from me...and all I have are memories...memories that will always be remembered but no power to put the things where I want them to be

Right at this moment, I may have love her at that time but was afraid...and with this learning tonight maybe it's so right that I have started my life again...not being chained with my past.Today I learned that people should not be afraid of changes...that being afraid would only lead you nowhere so might as well risk and enjoy life, for life is indeed happy, and we should choose to be happy and fight for it.

crush

2007-10-29T00:59:00.000+12:00

after 4yrs of not being serious of me having crushes on anyone or liking other people for that matter is so over.Last time i posted something here, telling people that i should be having my life back, and not be a prisoner of my past.I talked to nanay melai about it, and she told me i should have done it a little bit earlier.I guess i really should be hit twice or thrice before i could decide on something.I looked at her friendster bulletin, and read that she has a crush on someone in LB.I dont know but i hate thinking about it but my mind and heart is telling me that things are so fast for her.and then just right now, i saw that her status now is that it is complicated, she never put a picture of her with another person in her friendster profile, but i was surprised that she did.I dont know what to feel. I cant really tell her to do things, she has her own way of moving on and I have mine too.And yes, everybody else is telling me that she has that kind of attitude, i thought and even fought for it that she is not like what they are thinking of, but I was wrong.Definitely, as i see it she is a selfish person, only thinking of her needs and not thinking if other people will get hurt as long as she gets the attention the credit the love of all the people around her. I dont know maybe im bitter or something, or maybe im hurting...but not jealous.I must say that i still love her, but my love for her is just a mark of my past.and for the first time, after 4yrs i decided to leave that past now and move on with my life...without her.personally things for me are quite doing well.I guess having kilig moments while watching tv and DVD's are now flowing in me.I missed those days that I will go anywhere just to look for my crushed...and even research about them. Today, i realized that there are so many things that I missed out, being so attached with her made me close my door, my mind even my heart to other possibilities.and now, I can say that I'm having a life without her, and my little step creates new happy memories in my life.surely love will come back to its newer form, and when that day comes, I know that I'll be ready to give myself again...not being afraid to be hurt again.

"sing like no one is listening, dance like no one is watching...LOVE ILIKE YOU'LL NEVER GET HURT...live like its heaven here on earth"

begin

2007-10-27T01:04:00.000+12:00

up until now i still dont know what to tell people whenever they ask me if im ok. i still dont know, but i think that conversation a while ago with JB made me realized that, its time for me to begin a new. i have picked up the lessons and accepted what happened and its up to me to begin right away or still be a prisoner of my past.i have loved her and will always love her.but US is now a part of my past and something out there is waiting to be discovered, and someone out there deserves to be given a chance to feel the love i have inside.there is so much love inside of me...and i was blinded that it was only her whom i could share it with.right now i must say that i am not ready to have a relationship or even suitors for that matter.not because its unfair for her or she would think that things are so fast...but (to make things clear)RIGHT NOW I DONT NEED ANY PERSON TO PICK UP THE PIECES AND MAKE ME WHOLE AGAIN..WHAT I NEED IS MYSELF TO DECIDE TO HAVE A NEW LIFE...A LIFE WITHOUT HER A LIFE WITHOUT WHAT IFS...A LIFE NOT LOOKING BACK, AGAIN.and when that time comes, i know that God will be seeking for me again, to ask if i could share what I have with another person, with someone who will not make me whole...but a person complementary to make two person one.and as i always see love...my life will be full of chances, unexplained matters...and even wonderful events...LESSONS ARE NOW LEARNED...AND I DECIDED TO USE THEM...TO MY NEW START

thanks...

2007-10-22T23:47:00.000+12:00

God always have His own way of making me happy...Im thankful for everything...Your always there for me...and im very thankful.For my parents, this one's for you..AND FOR MY INSPIRATION..sana marinig ko ulit toh...GALING MO TALAGA CONGRATS MAHAL!.syet im going to cry :( but you will always be and forever me my inspiration...08

currently feeling nothing

2007-10-19T23:56:00.000+12:00

tatlong linggo na rin ang lumilipas nang tinapos nyang muli ang relasyon namin. tatlong linggo ko na rin hindi maintindihan ang nararamdaman ko.sa katunayan, wala talaga akong nararamdaman eh.tipong masaya ako sandali tas tatahimik, tas mapapaisip tas iiyak. Pero eto totoo toh, hindi na ako katulad nung una at pangalawang paghihiwalay. Ang sabi nila baka nagmature na talaga ako...o baka lang may gusto akong itago sa sarili ko.ang totoo nyan, hindi ko rin alam, katulad ng nararamdaman ko ngayon. marami na akong advice na nakuha...marami na ring sermon na narinig...pero ang totoo hindi ko pa naririnig yung sarili ko.ang alam ko lang MAHAL KO PA RIN SIYA...oo gago na kung gago...katangahan na...pero yun talaga eh...lalo ko lang narealize yun nung nagkausap kami ni paulo..."ayaw mong maging malaya, dahil para sayo siya lang ang pwede mong mahalin"oo wala akong gustong mahalin at wala akong gustong makasama habang buhay siya lang.pero mali eh...MALI NANG MAHALIN ANG ISANG TAONG KUNG TRATUHIN AKO EH PARANG LARUAN.pero kapag naiisip ko yan...maiisip ko palaging SAPAT ANG PAGMAMAHAL KO AT PAGMAMAHAL NIYA PARA MAGING TAMA ANG LAHAT NG MALI.natatakot ako...natatakot na masaktan ulit.TAKOT AKONG IBIGAY ANG SARILI KO DAHIL BAKA IWAN AKO.tangina talaga...nasaktan ko na si JB ng dahil sa lintik na pagmamahal na to ayoko ng makasakit ulit.nasaktan ko na yung boyfriend nya...ng dahil lang sa lintik na pagmamahal na toh, kaya ayoko na.AYOKO NA PERO BIGLANG HIHIGPIT ANG HAWAK NG PUSO KO.gusto kong maging malaya pero kinukulong ko ang sarili ko...nakikipag date nga ako pero siya pa rin ang hinahanap ko...binabasted ko kaagad kapag nakikita kong hindi katulad niya...pero di pwede yun eh...wala ng pwedeng maging tulad niya dahil nag-iisa siya...ganun din nag-iiisa lang siya sa puso ko.BINUO KO NA NGA YUNG MUNDO KO SA KANYA EH...pero tama na...itigil na natin toh.

gusto ko munang mapag-isa...gusto kong buuin ang sarili ko, na walang tulong ng iba...at sana magawa ko ng magmahal ulit...magmahal na walang takot...na hindi nakatanikala sa anino nya...na hindi na muling lilingon pa...JUST LEAVE ME ALONE...

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wops... sorry for this very, very late apology. kanina ko lang nabasa yung lj na dated.... kailan ba yun? basta hntagal na pala. Ö

ANYwei, sorry for what i posted before na 'di ko na mashado maalala... i wasn't thinking rationally at that time and you did not deserve that.

p'ro honestly, i'm happy for you and pau. as in tunai, walang gaguhan.Ü tanong mo pa kai sil. kilala mo naman sil, diba?Ö

*** thanks for this message, weird noh pero gumaan ang pakiramdam ko nang mabasa ko. i dont
know if you are still reading my blog but just so you know...hehehe wala na kami.and i understand what you are feeling when your writing that entry...ako nga yung dapat magsorry sayo eh..kung nagalit man ako sandali lang yun...tas wala na...siguro dala lang ng emosyon kaya ganon.thanks again.

kewl ka nga k'se tunai ka eh... well, from what i gathered ha. stay true. ja!

hanggang dito na lamang....

2007-09-29T13:14:00.000+12:00

this is the end...
i hope we meet again...
but at that time...
i think...
things will never be the same...
again...

this is my story,
the end...
of the line.

HARD HABIT TO BREAK

BY CHICAGO

I guess I thought youd be here forever

Another illusion I chose to create

You dont know what ya got until its gone

And I found out just a little too late

I was acting as if you were lucky to have me

Doin you a favor I hardly knew you were there

But then you were gone and it was all wrong

Had no idea how much I cared

Chorus:

Now being without you

Takes a lot of getting used to

Should learn to live with it

But I dont want to

Living without you

Is all a big mistake

Instead of getting easier

Its the hardest thing to take

Im addicted to ya babe

Youre a hard habit to break

You found someone else you had every reason

You know I cant blame you for runnin to him

Two people together but living alone

I was spreading my love too thin

After all of these years

Im still tryin to shake it

Doin much better they say that it just takes time

But deep in the night its an endless flight

I cant get ya out of my mind

Chorus

2nd chorus:

Being without you

Takes a lot of getting used to

Should learn to live with it

I dont want to

Being without you

Is all a big mistake

Instead of getting any easier

Its the hardest thing to take

Im addicted to you

Youre a hard habit to break

i miss you

2007-09-22T15:33:00.000+12:00

....i want to see you again...just to see you...to be with you...that simple...but that hard

2007-09-09T20:17:00.000+12:00

You Would Do Most Things For Love

You are willing to go pretty far for love - but not far enough to compromise your core values.
Love is a priority for you, and you'll go further than most people to hold on to someone you love.
But killing for love? Or even taking a bullet? Probably out of the question.
No matter what, you love yourself the most!

Would You Do Anything For Love?

para sa akin ina...

2007-09-08T11:36:00.000+12:00

buti pa sa iba naniniwala ka...sana umpisa pa lang sinabi mo nang wala kang tiwala sa akin...para hindi na rin tayo naglolokohan. akala ko sa lahat ng tao ikaw ang makakaunawa sa akin... sa lahat ng sasabihin nila IKAW ang magtatanggol sa akin... MALI PALA AKO... bakit mo pa ako kailangang tanungin eh mas naniniwala ka naman sa iba... sa nangyari alam ko na ngayon na hindi pala kita matatakbuhan lalo na kapag may problema ako...
AYOS LANG...SANAY NA NAMAN NA AKONG KAUSAPIN ANG SARLI KO... AT SANAY NA RIN AKONG SARILI KO LANG ANG KASAMA KO... wala kang alam... DI KA KASI MARUNONG MAKINIG AT MAGTANONG...

"Breakaway"
Grew up in a small town
And when the rain would fall down
I'd just stare out my window
Dreaming of what could be
And if I'd end up happy
I would pray (I would pray)

Trying hard to reach out
But when I tried to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me
Wanted to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I prayed I could break away

[Chorus:]
I'll spread my wings and
I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes til'
I touch the sky
And I'll make a wish
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I love
I'll take a risk
Take a chance
Make a chang
And breakaway

Wanna feel the warm breeze
Sleep under a palm tree
Feel the rush of the ocean
Get onboard a fast train
Travel on a jet plane, far away (I will)
And breakaway

[Chorus]
Buildings with a hundred floors
Swinging around revolving doors
Maybe I don't know where they'll take me but
Gotta keep moving on, moving on
Fly away, breakaway

I'll spread my wings
And I'll learn how to fly
Though it's not easy to tell you goodbye
I gotta take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget the place I come from
I gotta take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway, breakaway, breakaway

SAWA NA AKONG MAGING IBA PARA LANG MAPANSIN NYO AKO...SIGURO NGA SARILI KO LANG INIISIP KO PERO AYOKO NA...EHTO AKO EH AT SANA MAUNAWAAN NYO...

siya nga pala yung taong pinalalayas nyo sa bahay kagabi...ay yung ultimong taong pumigil para sa aking lumayas at magalit sa inyo....yung taong napakasama ng tingin sa inyo...HANGGANG SA HULI AY NAIINTINDIHAN ANG PUNTO NYO...

pila at pera

2007-09-04T00:31:00.000+12:00

malapit na ang birthday ko...ibig sabihin malapit na ring mag expire ang driver's license ko...at dahil nung fri ay bigla akong dinalaw ng aking bisita di ako tumuloy sa LTO at kanina ko lang siya ginawa after ang aming career seminar.pagdating ko sa gate ng LTO inihinto na ako kaagad ng guard...magpamedical na raw ako at magpadrugtest. paglabas ko andami na aagad na sumulpot upang tumulong sa mga kailangan kong maaccomplish.una sa medical check up...wow 2 taon lang ang lumipas at tumaas na ng 50 pesos ang bayad...pucha parang BP lang tas weight at eye testing lang at parang di pa doctor yung lalaki kanina 100 na agad yun.drug test naman...pasalamat ka ah...guwapo yung kasabay ko kung hindi..ewan na...di ko tatanggaping 250 ang bayad dun para lang umihi ako.350 na agad ang nagagasta ko at wala pa akong lisensya sa lagay na yun. pagdating sa LTO bumulaga ang isang mahabang pila sa akin...at oo asa 138 pa lang na tao at anong number ko 294...san ka naman...mga 3 1/2 hrs lang naman akong nakaupo at naghihintay hanggang sa lumabas na rin ang aking lisensya...dahil dun...trineat ko ang sarili ko. nagkfc ako mag-isa nagkaroon pa tuloy ako ng crush...hahaha ang cute talaga nun.at pag-uwi ko...mas naging masaya ako lalao dahil sabi ni nanay...babayaran na lang daw niya yung kalahati ng nagasta ko para dun sa lisensya...yes makakabili ako ng bagong shoes sa birthday ko...

i pity

2007-08-25T23:01:00.000+12:00

di kita pinakekealaman...kaya sana wag mo akong husgahan na parang kilala mo na ako...wala akong pakialam sa inyo nun...kaya sana wag mo rin akong pakialaman...wala kang karapatang saktan ako ng ganito dahil kahit kailan di ako nag-isip ng kahit ano laban sayo...

it made sense...

2007-08-25T14:38:00.000+12:00

"di mo alam nagiging masaya ako sa tuwing may nagagawa ako para sayo"

"lagi ka namang masaya,hindi ba?"

"opo"

"eh di ibig sabihin lagi kang may nagagawa.sabi mo nagiging masaya ka kapag may nagagawa ka, tas tinanong kita kung lagi kang masaya sabi mo oo...ibig sabihin marami kang nagagawa.yung mga bagay na nagagawa at mga materyal na ibinibigay, paraan lang yan para masabing mahalaga ang isang tao.at kung ang isang bagay ay mahalaga...ito ay mahal"

" :) "

diba may sense naman....

ano ba talaga?

2007-08-24T22:28:00.000+12:00

kung meron man akong isang problema tungkol sa sarili ko...yun ay ang pagiging di ko totoo sa sarili ko.madalas sinasabi kong ok ako kahit di na talaga o di kaya naman ipapakitang masaya ako kahit na ba gusto ko na talagang umiyak.pero kagabi...kakaiba. di ko masabing ok ako dahil sa loob ko talaga hindi.di ko rin masabing naiintindihan ko dahil sa loob ko gusto kong maging makasarili para maging masaya ako.ang labo ko noh...siguro nga may mga pagkakataong mas gugustuhing mo na lang na maging sinungaling...pero kagabi at kanina ko lang naramdamang kapag napuno ka na pala sa damdaming pilit mong itinatago kahit pigilan mo...lalabas at lalabas din ito sayo..

GM: mahirap sabihing ok ka kahit na alam mo sa sarili mong nasasaktan ka.mahirap sabihing naiintindihan mo lalo na kung alam mong ang pagiging makasarili ang magpapaligaya sayo...di ka talaga pwedeng magsinungaling...lalong lalo na sa sarili mo...

i miss you

2007-08-22T21:24:00.000+12:00

di mo alam kung gaano ako kasaya kanina nang pauwi ako lulan ng isang berde na bus.hindi mo alam kung gaano ako napapangiti sa tuwing nagbavibrate ang phone ko at nakikita kong nanggaling sa iyo ang mensaheng akong natanggap.hindi mo alam kung gaano na kita namiss, ang mga kulitan natin, mga pagkain sa cafeteria, mga tampuhan at away...ang mga paglalambingan tuwing tayong dalawa lang ang magkasama.di mo alam...gustong gusto na kitang makita.kung di lang talaga ako busy eh marahil tuwing namimiss kita ay pinpuntahan kita diyan...kung saan dati'y ako rin ay nag-aaral.miss na kita sobra...sa sobrang pagkamiss ay napaiyak ako sa tuwa...napaiyak ako dahil kahit malayo tayo alam kong tayo pa rin...at ang ating pagkakaibigan ay kailanma'y di mabubuwag ng kahit ano...napaiyak ako dahil alam ko na isa ka sa mga kakampi ko...sandalan ko sa tuwing asa ibaba ako at nakalugmok...napaiyak ako dahil alam kong naiinitindihan mo kahit para sa iyo ay isang pagkakamali uli ang ginawa ko...hindi mo alam kung paano mo ako napasaya at napaiyak sa kapasyahan mong iyon...dun ko nalamang mahalaga talaga ako sayo...

napaiyak mo ako dahil hanggang ngayon ay di mo pa rin siya matanggap...ngunit napasaya mo ako dahil pilit mo itong rerespetuhin at iintindihin...dahil ako ito, at di mo ako matiis...

miss na talaga kita...

funchum

a song for you

2007-08-18T12:57:00.000+12:00

tagal ko ng hinahanap tong kantang toh...nung unang time pa na naging tayo eh hinahanap ko na talaga siya pero di ko mahanap...to no avail i gave up looking...at ngayon bumalik ka na...naalala ko ulit yung kanta...at kaboom...ang bilis ko lang nakita...can wait to download the song file of this...this one's for you

The Reason Why
by Richard Marx

What did I do
Before the day
I set my eyes on you?
Spending my time
Just working on the things
I had to do
And then I saw your face
I was captured heart and soul
You gave me so much more

You're the reason why
I listen in the night
And steal the softest kisses
While you sleep
You're the reason why
Tears will fill my eyes
Just looking at a photograph of you

Touching my frown
Tell me what you read between the lines
Everything's alright
I know sometimes
I act a little strange
You bring me so much joy
Conversations make me smile
How could
I love you more

You're the reason why
I speak with foolish pride
Whenever theres a chance to
Show you round
You're the reason why
I lost this heart of mine
At the very moment you arrived

I cant believe this life was ever lonely
No I cant imagine life before you

You're the reason why
I'm holding on so tight
I never want to let this feeling go
You're the reason why
My love will never die
My heart just could not sing if not for you

What did I do
Before the day
I set my eyes on you

simula nung naging tayo...at nang magbalik ka...yan ang lagi kong tanong...ano bang nagawa kong maganda sa mundo...para ibigay sa akin ang isang tulad mo...

i love you...i really do...

im happy

2007-08-14T00:00:00.000+12:00

masaya ako...di dahil mahal mo ako dahil nagiging masaya ako sa tuwing naiisip kong mahal ko ang isang tulad mo..masaya ako di dahil nabibilhan mo ako ng mga bagay na kailangan ko kundi napaparamdam mo sa aking kailangan mo ako...at may nagagawa akong mga malalaking bagay para sayo...masaya ako hindi sa tuwing naglalambing ka...pero sa tuwing pinapakita mong may respeto ka sa pagkatao ko at sa pagiging ako...masaya ako di dahil lagi mong sinasabing mahal mo ako...pero dahil sa mga kuwento mo na mas nagpapalalim ng pagkakakilala ko sayo...

masaya ako di dahil mahal mo ako ngayon, at bukas...pero dahil dumating ka kahapon at kasama ko ngayon...nangangarap at umaasang hanggang bukas kasama kita...

masaya ako...masayang masaya...dahil pinili kong maging masaya...sa piling mo...

unang araw ng 3days non working holiday...

2007-08-03T22:52:00.000+12:00

maaga akong nagising...oh well nasasanay na lang talaga siguro ang katawan ko na gumising ng maaga....pagkagising ko baba kaagad, nag-almusal at lalarga na kami ng aking ina sa city hall para magparehistro at kumuha ng birth certificate para sa pag-punta namin sa states.

dahil sa wala kaming sasakyan, nagcommute kami nila nanay...ang weird kasi di na nangyayaring nagjejeep ako kasama sila nanay...at oo first time din ni pauline sumakay ng jeep at tricycle...kaya nakakatuwa talaga.habang nasa biyahe, tumawag si tatay para sabihin bukas pa yung start ng reg.kaya yun sa NSO na lang kami nagpunta.haaaayy government offices talaga ever mabagal.mga isang oras kaming walang ginagawa ni mel...at ayun walang nakuha si nanay.saya no.after nun nagpunta kami sa city hall para kumuha ng cedula.mabilis lang yun...at ayun biglang nagyaya si nanay mag trinoma.

kumain kami sa trinoma...at nag-ikot ikot...pagdating ng ala una lumipat na ako ng the block dahil magkikita kami.sa the block...kumain uli...tas nag-ikot ikot nakita pa namin si shane...tas namili sa national...

what a day...pero...mas masaya sana kung kasama kit buong araw...

pissed off

2007-08-01T00:15:00.000+12:00

can you please stop acting so insensitive...di ako nagseselos sa ginagawa mo! mas lalo lang akong naiirita!

destiny

2007-07-29T00:53:00.000+12:00

walang salitang makakapaglarawan ng nadarama ko ngayon...siguro sa kabila ng paghihirap ko, alam ko na naging tama ang desisyon ko sa pagkakataong ito...

after all
by peter cetera and cher

Well, here we are again;
I guess it must be fate.
We've tried it on our own,
But deep inside we've known
We'd be back to set things straight.

I still remember when
Your kiss was so brand new.
Every memory repeats,
Every step I take retreats,
Every journey always brings me back to you.

(chorus)
After all the stops and starts,
We keep coming back to these two hearts,
Two angels whove been rescued from the fall.
After all that we've been through,
It all comes down to me and you.
I guess its meant to be,
Forever you and me, after all.

When love is truly right
(this time its truly right.)
It lives from year to year.
It changes as it goes,
Oh, and on the way it grows,
But it never disappears,

Chorus

Always just beyond my touch,
You know I needed you so much.
After all, what else is livin' for?

lahat ng araw right time...kaya di ko na pinalampas dahil di na ako papayag na mawala pa siya....ulit

?

2007-07-26T19:53:00.001+12:00

....3 months na...ang yes finally this maybe the right time to tell him...hope you'll understand

i told you...

2007-07-21T13:05:00.000+12:00

i was riding a bus a while ago...it was 6:30 and i really have to attend to my 7 am class.at first i was really anxious for i feel that im going to be late, but then after we passed sto domingo and welcome i realized that i will be coming to school just on time for my comp class.while passing through maceda a song was played, and so many realizations came upon my head.i was really smiling all the time and i felt that the man sitting beside me thinks that i am sort of a crazy girl smiling with no reason at all.

but then i also realized maybe the man sitting beside me felt the strange and enthralling feeling i have during the time when the song was being played.i was really happy that whenever i walk inside our faculty rm, or even the classroom of 2-honesty, during our major classes, during meetings of comelec, everyone will be asking why im so happy or ecstatic. I dont know, isn't it strange that people can feel what's inside of me, but i myself cannot put into words the succumbing feeling i have.anyone who can see me can tell the real score between me and this person...but for me are all there is, are emotions trying to fill something inside of me.

i rememebered yesterday i was crying secretly inside the FX. im going home from my GA and i was feeling disappointed about an emotion i was trying to hide. I even crossed the commonwealth high way while crying thinking that cars would be crashing infront of me. but yet i was wrong, i feel that even the cars can feel the loneliness and disappointment i have inside that i myself cannot comprehend.

(im starting to feel happy after the last text i received last night, apparently it made the feeling of sadness flushed away)

after hearing the song i became thankful that even if i cant explain the feelings i have, still i can count through every event, people and circumstances, that they will be the ones to put into words the feelings that i try to suppress or even the emotions that i dont understand. Hoping that someday i can explain to that person the things ive been trying to hide...

anyone can see

if i could

i'd try to know you

and i would

never let you go

my love

but if i

wanna make you

a better time

it would take today

someday

anyone can see

what you mean to me

anyone would know

(would know)

my love is there

waiting just for you

on the night

when you left me

i cried

wishing you would say

you'll stay

maybe i

don't have much strength to

tell you

i need you so

i guess you'll never know

anyone can see

what you mean to me

anyone can tell (can tell)

i'd fell

for you

so easily

her side of the story...

2007-07-19T00:32:00.000+12:00

Hard Habit to Break
- Chicago

I guess I thought you'd be here forever
Another illusion I chose to create
You don't know what you've got until it's gone
And I found out a little too late

I was acting as if you were lucky to have me
Doing you a favor - I hardly knew you at all
Then you were gone and it all was wrong
Had no idea how much I cared

Now being without you takes a lot of getting used to
I should learn to live with it, but I don't want to

CHORUS:
Being without you, was all a big mistake
Instead of getting any easier, it's the hardest thing to take
I'm addicted to you, baby
You're a hard habit to break

You found someone else, you had every reason
No one can blame you for running to him
Two people together, but living alone
I was spreading my love too thin

After all of these years I'm still trying to shake you
Doing much better - They say that it just takes time
But deep in the night, it's an endless fight
I can't get you out of my mind

today...

2007-07-18T22:53:00.000+12:00

i told myself that ill get back to business...its been quite a while that i feel that im too lazy to do things.now i wont promise but ill do my best do do the things that are expected of me.

nga pala ibig sabihin nyan...ngaragan time na naman hehehehe

happy birthday steph

2007-07-15T13:14:00.000+12:00

pagkatapos ng aming isang linggong pagiging pormal, at isang araw na comp class nagpunta kami nila lent,nomer, emman,at shane sa C3 dagat dagatan para sa birthday ng aking pinakamamahal na si porky rice.sakto pagdating namin dun ang una naming ginawa ay...kumain...heheh solve na solve.after naming kumain dumating sila nina,glenda,leo,pearl,jam, at kuya edward...ayan na nagsimula na ang aming pagwawal.nag video oke...pinagtawanan ang uaap team ng uste...at syempre uminom ng empi.after 2 yrs ng di pag-inom. ayun...hahaha

mga 7 na rin kami umuwi...hehehe

ang saya...sobrang minsan lang mangyari na makapgwala kami kaya ayun...

salamat steph

2007-07-08T23:23:00.000+12:00

I knew I love you

Maybe it's intuition
But some things you just don't question
Like in your eyes
I see my future in an instant
And there it goes
I think I've found my best friend

I know that it might sound more than a little crazy
But I believe

I knew I loved you before I met you
I think I dreamed you into life
I knew I loved you before I met you
I have been waiting all my life

There's just no rhyme or reason
Only this sense of completion
And in your eyes
I see the missing pieces
I'm searching for
I think I've found my way home

I know that it might sound more than a little crazy
But I believe

I knew I loved you before I met you
I think I dreamed you into life
I knew I loved you before I met you
I have been waiting all my life

A thousand angels dance around you
I am complete now that I've found you

I knew I loved you before I met you
I think I dreamed you into life
I knew I loved you before I met you
I have been waiting all my life


sana lang maintindihan nyo...di ko to ginagawa dahil gusto kong magrebelde

sa inyo o dahil wala akong magawa....kahit ako naguguluhan...sana
suportahan nyo na lang ako...di kunsintehin pero sana maintindihan nyo

2007-07-05T22:58:00.000+12:00

45 of the most random things you probably never needed to know about someone

whats your name spelt backwards?: airam esiuol ognimod etnap
What did you do last night?: natulog
The last thing you downloaded onto your computer?: ah kanta eh...again ata ni janet jackson
Have you ever licked a 9 volt battery?: ah...ikaw nagawa mo na ba yun?
Last time you swam in a pool?: ah...hala tagal na...ay nung nagpunta kami sa bataan nung april
What are you wearing?: ngayon...pink shirt at khaki shorts
How many cars have you owned?: ah family car yun eh 2
Type of music you dislike most?: ang emo...sorry baby ayoko talaga eh
Are you registered to vote?: sa school oo pero sa pilipinas di pa
Do you have cable?: ng telepono meron pati internet
What kind of computer do you use?: desktop
Ever made a prank phone call?: yeah
You like anyone right now?: YES
Would you go bungee jumping or sky diving?: pareho gusto ko
Furthest place you ever traveled?: ah sa aklan
What's your favorite comic strip?: pugad baboy saka kiko machine
Do u know all the words to the national anthem?: oo naman...ako pa ilang beses ko bang nakanta yun sa harap ng high school community
Shower, morning or night?: pareho
Best movie you've seen in the past month?: ah...ano nga ba?pan's labyrinth
Favorite pizza toppings?: bell pepper
Chips or popcorn?: popcorn syempre...ako pa
What cell phone provider do you have?: nokia
Have you ever smoked peanut shells?: ah no
Have you ever been in a beauty pageant?: organizer OO
Orange Juice or apple?: apple
Who were the last people you sat at lunch with?: ah...sino nga ba?si shane ata
favorite chocolate bar?: chocnut
Who is your longest friend and how long?: si jedd for 16yrs na
Last time you ate a homegrown tomato?: ah...di pa ako nakakain ng ganun
Have you ever won a trophy?: yeah
Favorite arcade game?: tekken
Ever ordered from an infomercial?: nope
Sprite or 7-UP?: sprite
Have you ever had to wear a uniform to school/work?: oo naman hanggang ngayon
Last thing you bought at Walgreens?: ah san yun
Ever thrown up in public?: nope
Would you prefer being a millionaire or finding true love?: nakita ko na yung love pera na lang wala
Do you believe in love at first sight?: yeah it did happened
SPONGEBOB OR JIMMY NEUTRON?: spongbob....syempre fave siya ng baby ko eh
Did you have long hair as a young kid?: nope
What message is on your voicemail machine?: wala kaming voicemail machine eh
Where would you like to go right now?: sa tabi niya...heheh ang mushy
Whats the name of your pet?: wala kaming pet eh
What kind of back pack do you have, and what's in it?: di na ako nagbaback pack
What do you think about most?: kung anong dapat maaccomplish within that day

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You Are 28% Spoiled

You're barely spoiled. You may have some nice things, but you never let them go to your head.
You appreciate each gift you're given - and you don't dwell on what you "deserve" to have.

Are You Spoiled?

2007-07-03T22:10:00.000+12:00

fill it in

My name is: maria louise domingo pante
I'm from: the island of Philippines specifically sa quezon city
My birthday is: on september 6,1986
I: huh...
My pet peeves are: color red, hello panda,chocnut,ah....mashimaro , monokoruboo, penguins at panda...syeeettt
I hate it when: may makulit lalo na kapag wala namang sense yung kinukulit...argh
I love it when: im with you....(yun yon)
I think: of you...hahahahah
I wish: i am beside you...hahaha
The weather is: perfectly fine...pwedeng magjogging
I think I"m: soooooo stupid
People think I'm: talented...
It's funny how: people think of me as someone who is sooo confident
Life is good when: you see the simpler reasons of life
Sometimes: i wonder why I am so weak when it comes to you
My boyfriend/girlfriend is: an emo
I think he/she is: sexy...swear ganda kaya ng katawan ni JB kakainggit
We met at: sorry pero sa IRC
Kids are: a ok with me
I listen to: anything basta ba di puro ingay
I cannot listen to: ayun nga sobrang emo at ingay na wala ng sense
Justin Timberlake is: uber sexy...like i think i want to marry him...hahahah
One thing I would change about myself would be: being so emotional and being locked up with my past...its as if i never move on with things or i just go on carrying the baggages with me...sucks
My best friend is: are Jedd, margaux, shane and oliver i love them I wish they know
My favorite food is: are dinuguan,kamote cue, turon, fishballs,kwek kwek, pizza, apple pie, cheesecake
I drink: anything not poisonous, wag din beer at softdrinks or any carbonated drink for that matter
I dream about: sleeping in the same bed with you
Someday: i want to get married and be happy just by accepting the things fate has given me...because of the choices and dreams I made
Somewhere: the one destined for me is just there meeting the wrong ones to be right for me
Somehow: ....i wish that things will just be easier for me to accept and let go of

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Your French Name is:

Quiterie Barnabe

What's Your French Name?

feelings...

2007-06-23T14:00:00.000+12:00

Again

by Janet Jackson

I heard from a friend today

And she said you were in town

Suddenly the memories came back to me in my

Mind

Chorus

How can I be strong

Ive asked myself

Time and time Ive said

That I'll never fall in love with you again

A wounded heart you gave

My soul you took away

Good intentions you had many

I know you did

I come from a place that hurts

And God knows how Ive cried

And I never want to return

Never fall again

Making love to you

Oh it felt so good and

Oh so right

Chorus

So here we are alone again

Didn't think it'd come to this

And to know it all began

With just a little kiss

Ive come too close to happiness

To have it swept away

Don't think I can take the pain

No never fall again

Kinda late in the game and my heart is in

Your hands

Don't you stand there and then

Tell me you love

Me then leave again

Cause Im falling in love with

You again

Hold me

Don't ever let me go

Say it just one time

Say you love me

God knows I do

Love you

Again

2007-06-17T13:26:00.000+12:00

*Music, Friends, Crushes, friends and general info*
General Info.
Name/Nickname::	maria louise domingo pante/ louie.louise.ate louie,louie pants,pante,mithi,bro louie,mallows,lois ah marami pa eh
Age::	20
why are you taking this survey?:	para may malagay sa blog ko
What time is it?:	9:30am
Are you IMing someone right now?:	yeah
If so, who?:	si jb ko...baby asan ka na...
~Favorites~
Color:	red at pink
Store:	kasheica
Number:	4
Book:	stella in heaven, she say he say,after eden,star dust
Magazine:	wala
Show:	abt ur love, my name is kim sam soon,meteor garden1,all abt 1%,my girl,only you,card captor sakura, sailormoon
President:	magsaysay
Movie:	godzilla,wedding singer,shutter,the village,jologs,now that i have you,working girls1, bagets 1 and 2
Band:	mojofly,paramita,updharmadown,urbandub,sheila and the insect,silent sanctuary,imago
Singer:	lea salonga at si sarah geronimo
Song:	stay ni carol banawa,because of you ni neyo at yes tatlo na fave song ko...i call it love ni lionel richie
Musical Instrument:	violin at drums
Friends--Which friend is the (most)...
Best:	si margaux...i miss you na funchum
Nicest:	ah si nikki...sobrang bait nun..kahit binabalahura ni ermine ayaw pa ring magalit
Athletic:	si mara siguro
Original:	ah...lahat kami
Colorful:	si kate
Musical:	si aia
Good Taste:	in what sense
best to hang with on a friday night:	lahat sila
Music...Which is better
Fender or Gibson:	ah...wala
Bass or Drums:	drums
Green Day or Foo Fighters:	pareho lang
Evanescence or My Chemical Romance:	evanescence
Blink 182 or Avenged Sevenfold:	blink
Good Charlotte or Metallica:	metallica
ACDC or Iron Maiden:	wala
Korn or Nirvana:	pareho
System of a Down or Queens of the Stone Age:	ah...di ko pa naririning yung queens eh
The Used or HIM:	sino yung HIM
Weezer or Fall Out Boy:	wala
Crush
Is it a He or a She?:	a he
Is he/she older than you?:	di ko alam
are you in love with them?:	no...ppapatayin ako ng bf ko kapag ganon
do they know you like them?:	wag di pwede
have you ever hugged them?:	no
are you friends with them?:	magkakilala kami
what color hair?:	brown
what color eyes?:	brown din...di ko kasi makita lagi siyang nakasalamin
style?:	aktibista...hahaha
what kind of music do they like?:	wan ko
are they dating anyone?:	ewan ko din
are you friends with who they are dating?:	di ko nga alam
are they taller than you?:	oo sobra
Random stuffz
do you wear glasses/contacts/braces?:	no
would you make a good president?:	ah...tanong mo sa mga kaklase ko at ka org
could you be a rock star?:	oo...i want to be one
are you in love with yourself?:	yes
What time is it now?:	9:38
how long did this take you?:	10mins
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first day...or even my first week

2007-06-16T12:53:00.000+12:00

wala ng time para magblog...ang labo...maaga nga ang tapos ng class ko...pero natatambakan naman ako ng preparations for my class para sa high school at sa COMELEC.teka muna nga isa isa lang...pati ako naguguluhan...

before everything else...this is my sched for this sem.

MWF

7-9 PRACTICUM time

9-10 HIST 111

10-1 Floating time

TTH

7-10 PRACTICUM time

10-11:30 HIST 110

11:30- 2:30 Floating Time

ang floating time ay panahon kung san ginagawa ko ang magkahalong trabahong guro at trabahong COMELEC chair...kaya walang definite na lugar kung san ako makikita. hahaha tas madalas ang mtg namin sa COMELEC ay MWF ng 3 onwards...san ka naman...iiyak na lang ako.

First day sa UNIVERSITY...

June 13

last week pa yung first day ko sa EHS ngayon ay first day naman sa University life ko.alalang alala pa ako kasi baka malate ako sa call time namin dahil nasanay ako na walang kasabayan sa pag-aabang ng masasakyan.buti naman wala pang 6:30 eh dumating na ako sa school.We were wearing our lavander practicum uniform na di ko alam bakit ganon yun...but im really comfortable with it. pagdating sa faculty rm...patenga tenga lang ako dahil wala naman kaming class sa second yr tuwing wed.so imbis na tumambay punta agad ako sa websternet para magpaprint nung notes ko para sa turo ko next week.after kong magpaprint...takbo naman ako sa faculty rm para uli mag-ayos para sa class ko.goodthing we are allowed to use the elevator kung hindi...ah nasa 5th flr kaya yung faculty rm tas asa ground flr yung rm ko...san ka naman diba.pagdating sa rm namin...lahat ay masaya dahil kumpleto na naman ang aming major.classmate namin si steph at syempre si wilmar.ilang minuto lang dumating na si ma'am picadizo...oh well for the record teacher ko siya sa Hist 104 nung second yr second sem, RC nung thrid yr first sem, sem ed nung summer classes at ngayon sa Hist 111 4th yr first sem.sus sobrang kilalang kilala na ata ako ni ma'am eh.wala naman kaming ginawa sa class kundi...kumopya ng course outline at pagkwentuhan ang naging unang linggo namin sa EHS.aftye class naghanap na lang ako ng pwedeng gawin sa faculty rm...at ayun pagdating ng 3 takbo naman sa org rm para sa mtg.nakauwi na kami ng 5 at pagdating sa 5 unting phone...at revise ng lesson plan...at ayun tulog na ako.

second day

june 14

may turo sa ehs...naging ok naman yung class...mas ok sila kaysa nung huli namin silang tinuruan...haai nabawasan din ang kaingayan ng class.wala kaming prof sa isa namin class at pagdating sa faculty rm gumawa naman kaming mga second yr high school history teacher ng aming TOS...at uwi na rin.

third day

june 15

last day ng turo ni chile...medyo ok na yung class...OMG ako na yung sususnod na isasalang...Goodluck!after ng turo namin...takbo ako ng third flr para kunin yung susi ng locker ng comelec kay ronald...pahinga ng unti...tas klase na naman.tinapos lang namin kopyahin yung course outline at kinuha yung homework para sa monday...na di namin alam kung san huhugutin...ano ba yun?after class pahinga lang ng unti at takbo sa org rm para sa mtg ko with the PAFT president.good, ok na naplano na namin yung elections nila at sa july 3 na yung activity...good luck.after ng mtg ko, akyat sa faculty rm...patenga tenga uli...kain ng lunch at ayun...sinimulan na namin ang paggawa ng aming mastery test.eto lang eh...mahirap gumawa ng test...nakakaloka...sobra.kaya ngayon sobrang naappreciate ko na talaga yung mga ginagawa ng mga teachers eh...guys...respect your teachers...kasi mahirap maging isa...minsan wala ka na lang talagang pahinga para lang sa kapakanan ng mga students mo.mahirap magcheck lalo na kung puro bagsak pa yungs score...at mahirap mag-isip gabi gabi kung paano mapapadali para sa mga students yung lesson mong mahirap.haaayyy ako pag umuuwi ako sa bahay bagsak na talaga ako...at ayun feel ko pa makakalimutan ko pa na may pasok ako ngayon.after gumawa ng mastery test mtg naman sa staust hanggang 5:30...at umuwi na rin ako.

third day

June 16 Saturday

eto nasa comp class ako...haaayy tamad na tamad pa man din ako kaninang pumasok...pero dahil first day...sige na lang....kaya ehto...wala naman kaming gagawin...next mtg na lang daw...hahaha internet galore...haaayyy iisipin ko pa yung mga visuals ko para sa monday at yung test...anak naman oo...dami tambak...NAPAKATAMAD KO KASI

better know the story first

2007-06-13T07:44:00.000+12:00

If you asked me to

by: Celine Dion

Used to be that I believed in something
Used to be that I believed in love
It's been a long time since I've had that feeling
I could love someone
I could trust someone
I said I'd never let nobody near my heart again darlin'
I said I'd never let nobody in

But if you asked me to
I just might change my mind
And let you in my life, forever
If you asked me to
I just might give my heart
And stay here in your arms forever
If you asked me to
If you asked me to

Somehow ever since I've been around you
Can't go back to being on my own
Can't help feeling darling since I've found you
That I've found my home
That I'm finally home
I said I'd never let nobody get too close to me darling
I said I needed, needed to be free

Ask me to, I will give my world, to you baby
I need you now
Ask me to, and I'll do anything, for you baby
For you baby

If you ask me to
I'd let you in my life forever
If you asked me to
All you gotta do is ask me to
All you gotta do, all you gotta do
Is ask me to
I'll give you my world
If you ask me to
Just ask me to

2007-06-09T12:52:00.000+12:00

*Pandora's Box*
What time do you get up in the mornings?:	6am
First thoughts waking Up?:	hmmm sakit ng legs ko
Do you shower Daily?:	yeah twice a day
Do you believe in Life on other planets?:	yep
How do you take your coffee?:	au lait
Do you eat breakfast?:	minsan kapag di pa ako late...lalo na ngayon 6:30 ang call time ko
Do you prefer sleeping alone?:	paminsan
Do you smoke cigarettes?:	no
Have you ever burnt your hair?:	di pa naman
Do you sleep with a pillow?:	oo naman...sakit ata sa batok ng walang unan
What were your habits as a child?:	hmmm ano nga ba...
Do you want kids?:	yeah
Are you an only child?:	no
Do you like road trips?:	oo...sobra lalo na kapag out of town
Who are your 6 best friends?:	4 lang eh...si jedd si margaux si shane at si oliver
Do you brush your teeth in the shower?:	yeah
Do you eat leftovers?:	oo...lalo na kapag late na ako nakauwi at galit si nanay
Do you prefer being single, or in a relationship?:	pareho lang./..
Are you in a relationship now?:	yeah
Have you ever cheated?:	hm.....
Have you ever been cheated on?:	OO naman
Once a cheater, always a cheater?:	hmmm nope
Pajamas or naked?:	pajamas
What do you take when you have a headache?:	wala...tutulog ko na lang
Roughing it or luxury hotel?:	roughing it out
Beach or pool?:	pool
Would you give your number out to a stranger?:	oo paminsan
Ever hitchhiked?:	nope
Ever picked up a hitchhiker?:	nope
Roses or daisies?:	daisies
Do you consider yourself conceited?:	hindi...kahapon oo hahahaha minsan lang ako maganda eh
Is your hair its original color ?:	yeah
Do you wear makeup?:	kapag papasok sa practicum oo pero sa ordinaryong araw hindi
Do you eat ranch with your pizza?:	minsan...kapag may kasama na
Do you believe in God?:	YEAH
Do you have a crush on anybody right now?:	yep
Does he/she know it ?:	ay di pwede...mapapagalitan ako pagnagkataon
What food could you absolutely never give up?:	hmmm dinuguan
Who's your favorite cartoon?:	card captor sakura...grabe in love na ako sa movie two
What TV. shows do you watch?:	hmmm marami eh all abt ur love
Do you think you're attractive?:	NO
Are you allergic to anything?:	hmmm...wala naman
Ever had your heart broken?:	yeah
Who was the last person to hurt you?:	siya...gusto mo pangalanan ko
Who was the last person you hurt?:	siya...si ano
Do you wear socks to bed?:	nope
How do you feel about breast implants?:	ayos ka lang...dapat maging masaya ka na sa kung anong meron ka
What kind of shampoo do you use?:	rejoice complete
Have you ever been in love?:	oo naman
Do you think love is real for young people?:	no
Have you ever loved somebody who didn't love you?:	oo naman
Black or white?:	black
Say your opinion, or keep it to yourself?:	say my opinion
The snow or the sun?:	snow
Favt. Song at the Moment?:	stay ni carol banawa
Favt. Band?:	marami...paramita, up dharma down,urbandub, silent sanctuary, sheila and the insect,mojofly,
Favt. CD?:	wala
Last Movie you Watched?:	shrek the third
Last song you sung?:	beautiful liar
Do you like to dress up?:	no
How long does it take you to get ready after you get out of bed?:	15 min
Describe your type of dude/girl ?:	hmmm im easily attracted to those who wear glasses...at yung may aura na matalino...SWEAR!!!
Will you Love Him/Her?:	hmmm wan ko
Do you really understand what Love is?:	minsan oo minsan din hindi
How many pairs of jeans do you have?:	3
Do you want to get married in a church?:	oo naman
Shower in the morning or night?:	pareho
Is there ever a justified reason to lie?:	wala...diba louie wala
Favorite Disney movie?:	aladin
Favorite movie?:	godzilla,wedding singer,the village,jologs,now that i have you,shutter,shallo hal,
Favorite song?:	stay ni carol banawa at because of you ni neyo
Have you already met the love of your life?:	hmm...di ko alam
Do you think you and your best friend will still be friends in 10 years?:	oo naman
Ever thought you were gay?:	im a bisexual
Are you a good girlfriend/boyfriend?:	hmmm tanong mo sa kanila
Do you like being in a relationship?:	sakto lang
Hats or no hats?:	no hats
Do you fall for people easily?:	magkacrush...oo pero mainlove hindi
Is it hard for you to open up to people?:	no
Do you watch what you eat?:	yeah lalo na ngayon...need to lose that 15lbs
Do you believe in alternative medicine?:	yeah
Is this true "an eye for an eye?":	no
"All's fair in love and war"?:	yeah
"True love never dies":	hmmm siguro...
If you could change one thing about your physical appearence what would it:	yung pagiging mataba ko
Mom or dad?:	dad
How long have you known your best friend?:	si jedd..15 yrs na, si margaux 11yrs na si shane at oliver 3 yrs na
What’s your favorite meal of the day?:	hmmm dinner
Do you have any secrets?:	oo naman..may tao bang wala
What is your worst fear?:	mawalan at maiwanan
Do you play hard to get?:	oo...hahahah
Are you hard to get?:	yeah
Do you like the chase?:	hmmm minsan
Do you use an umbrella?:	oo kapag mainit at maulan
Night or day?:	night
Republican or democrat?:	democrat
Do you like our president?:	sakto lang
Do you consider yourself 'nice'?:	oo naman
How do you wan't to Die?:	hmmm old age
What should you be doing right now?:	lesson plan revsion
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ulan

2007-06-06T00:16:00.000+12:00

takot akong maligo sa ulan...takot akong maiwana...mawalan...sa gitna ng ulan...

kaya di ako sumama....

thanks for letting me go...now i know for sure....

that i dont love you......................................................................................................

di inaasahan

2007-06-03T00:29:00.000+12:00

matagal na nila akong niyaya...pero dahil sa katamaran kong gumawa ng lesson plan na deadline sa monday, at dahil wala din akong pera...di ako sumama...heheh nagtatampo yung mga yun...kaso anong magagawa ko...ibinili ko na mga gamit ang natitira kong pera.

sinamahan ko sila nanay sa hospital para sa Xray ni mel, at dahil wala si kuya, ako na lang muna ang nagmaneho.namiss ko ring magdrive..simula kasi nung natuto si mel eh madalas siya na ang nagmamaneho...kaya kanina ako naman.dumaan muna kami dun sa kliyente ni tatay, tapos nag punta kami sa east ave para sa Xray ni mel para sa enrollment niya sa ateneo.pagkatapos nun pumunta kaming SM north dahil kukuha ng pera si nanay.

dahil alam kong magtatrinoma ang cafe_people...tinext ko sila cake at bea para maghi at humingi ng dispensa sa di pagpunta...nag reply si cake...nandito kami sa gonuts sa the block...punta ka dito...GO...ayun nakita ko rin ang mga long lost friends ko...heheh.nakita ko si cake..si abbey at si di.hanggang sa huli pinilit pa rin talaga nila akong sumama kaso...di talaga uubra...may deadline ako...heheh priority wise lang talag. promise babawi ako sa susunod.

wala lang....

nanay ko talaga galing manlaglag....

nilalagnat ako

2007-05-31T00:21:00.000+12:00

nilalagnat ako

nagpunta ako ng SM...alam mo ba na puro kakikayan ang binili ko...OMG di ako to!

mukhang nabinat ako dahil sa pagpunta sa SM...lagot ako

di ko pa rin tapos ang LP ko...sa mon na deadline nun

may nakakatuwang nangyari...

ayan na...may lagnat na naman ako

one

2007-05-28T01:21:00.001+12:00

heheh late post...pero gusto ko lang ipagsigawang...one month na kami...one month na akong nagpapakababae...hahahah pero seriously...akala ko di na aabot dun dahil sa pamilya ko pero...my mom has been really supportive at si tatay keeps on reminding me of things...kaya ako masaya...kasi may paki sila...at alam sa parehong pamilya na kami na...ang kaso lang di pa ako nakikita at nakikilala sa kanila...(kailan kaya yun?)

we planned to just hang out sa bahay...nagtitipid kasi kami para sa pagpapanood namin ng sine...mahirap pera ngayon eh...bakasyon.so ayun...dumating siya habang nandito pa sa bahay ang pinsan at mga pamangkin ko...so in short medyo kilala na siya ng .1% ng pamilya ng nanay ko.ayun...so nanood kami ng tv....naghugas ng pinagmeriendahan nila...tas nood uli tv...kulitan...tas kumain ng dinner...hahaha nakakatuwa dahil siya na mismong nagkusang ligpitin na namin yung hapag...hahah kakatuwa.tas naghugas ng pinagkainan...at nanood ng tv.he stayed up to 12mn haha...tulad nung mga oras na sinagot ko siya...hahaha

hiling ko lang na sana tumagal...i mean...we know for a fact that some things are still hindrances at marami pa kaming dadaanan...isa pa Im still not over a person and he knows it...pero tulad ng dasal ko kagabi...im getting there...(hala parang si piolo lang)...

salamat sa paghugas ng pinggan...hahah sa susunod maglaba naman tayo...

nostalgic as it can be

2007-05-26T02:58:00.000+12:00

as usual...puyat na naman ako kanina dahil sa mahigit na 6hrs naming phone conversation ni JB...nagtataka na nga si nanay dahil nung isang araw lang eh magkausap din kami for almost 5hrs...hala ano na bang pinag-uusapan namin.actually...medyo nabigayn ko siya ng hint on what i have been going through with my ex. ayoko nang maglihim eh...ang i got a reaction which hurt something in me...hahah yung comment ni JB foul pero...oh well opinion nya yun eh.anyway di lang yun yung pinag-usapan nung time na yun.nasermonan pa niya ako about me, being suicidal.tagal na rin ang lumipas nung huli kong attempt no.isa pa nangako na ako sa mga tao...pero may ipagtatapat ako...(medyo lang naman...i hurt myself last thursday....heheheh sorry pero minimal lang naman yung ginawa ko eh.)tas ayun, pinag-usapan namin yung mga bagay bagay na nagbago sa amin simula nung...hehehe naging kami. sa akin kasi pakiramdam ko di pa evident yung ibang pagbabago.hahaha tanong mo na lang sina shane...mas napapansin kasi nila kaysa sa akin...ako pa eh maliban sa pagiging bingi ko eh napaka bulag ko pa. after naming mag-usap natulog ako for 2hrs...paggising ko...voila...masakit ang ulo ko, samahan mo pa ng sermon ng nanay ko dahil ang tagal tagal ko daw sa telepono.oh well....

after naming kumain ng lunch i took a nap to regain energy, recharge kumbaga...tas ayun naligo at nagpunta kami ng ateneo.ilang minuto sila nanay dun...may hinahanap silang painting.mga 4:30 nagpunta na kami sa gateway.heheh napagalitan pa ako ng nanay ko tungkol sa aking pagmumura.gets...nakapagbitaw ata ako ng 3 malulutong na putang ina sa loob ng 30segundo sa sobrang pagkaasar dahil di ko mahanap ang underground parking lot ng gateway,at sa guwarding di alam kung san yun.asar talaga yun.pagdating dun, naalala ni nanay na di niya nakuha kay kuya yung atm niya...so sa susunod na lang kami bibili ng bagong shoes. (haaayyy excited pa man din ako).

nung paakyat na kami sa cinema, sa may escalator...nakakita ako ng guwapong lalaki...nakaputi...somewhat familiar...lumapit ako sa pababang escalator at sinabi sa lalaki na... "huwag kang tingin ng tingin kung saan saan" at napaharap siya..."uy, anong ginagawa mo dito" " ako, manonood ako ng sine" "anong panonoorin mo?" "ako...shrek" napangiti siya at sumesenyas ng X" di daw maganda, masyadong pambata" nasa baba na siya ng escalator...alanga namang sumigaw pa ako...ngumiti na lang ako...sabay"sino yun" tanong ng nanay ko "ah.,..crush ko"alam mo kung sino yun...hehehe si alex.hahahahah

habang nasa pila ako ng ticket may isang babae na nakakulay dilaw ang dumaan sa harap ko..."cel","uy kamusta ka na?you did not change a bit" ngumiti lang ako."gagraduate ka na ba?" "yeah this year" sabay thumbs up siya. "nga pala tinatanong ni ms. roman kung gusto daw ba nating magka alumni concert" "ah oo nasabi na sa akin" "sige" kakaaliw...simula nung nakita ko siya nafeel ko na talagang marami akong makikita.

after bumili ng ticket kumain muna kami at nag-ikot ikot...mga 6:15 akyat na uli kami para mapanood namin yung trailers.nakakatuwa yung shrek...for my comments...sa review ko na lang sa multiply.hehehe buong movie...umiiyak si pauline.heheheh kaya di ako naniniwalang pambata siya.hahahaha

after ng movie, pumunta kami sa CR ni nanay, at pagpasok ko...OMG ang X ng X ko nandun...ang babaeng dahilan kung bakit ako sinagot ng una ko...san ka naman...hehehe ano ba to.

after nung nagpunta kaming bread talk at bumili si nanay ng tinapay, tas nagyayang magkape si nanay at dahil pureza kami ngayon dahil s apaglakas ng piso...nagpunta na lamang kami sa gonuts para dun magkape...sa kasalukuyan kong pag-aayos ng buhok...sabay may pumasok sa pinto..."LLLLlllloOOooouuuIIIeeee" "Oh my god!" sabay yakapan kami. "kamusta ka na?, kagagaling ko lang ng OJT...pinuntahan ko lang Daddy ko tas nakita kita" "grabe" actually wala akong nasabi nun kundi grabe lang. "teka picture tayo, kailangang madocument to" sabay pose naman kami."grabe ka di ka na nagpaparamdam, ano bang number mo?" sabay labas ng phone. "0917.." "ayan good...globe ka" "------""miss na talaga kita" "ako din, sige ingat ka!" "sino yun?" "si dea yung blockmate ko nung hs, grabe namiss ko talaga yung fave seatmate ko"...actually nung nakita ko siya...namiss ko lahat ng bagay nung hs ako..OMG talaga.

after sa gateway hinatid namin si mel sa LGV...at syempre praning praning pa ako.pano ba naman sa La Vista ang daan nami, so malamang Im going to see some parts of Miriam College grounds...sobrang nangingiyak ako nung dumaan kami sa HS gate...naaalala ko yung mga time na hinahatid ako ni tatay nung gs at hs days ko...yung unang araw sa HS na sobrang daming nangyari...tas dumaan kami sa CSC gate...sobrang syet...naaalala ko yung mga panahong nagbabus pa ako...sila mang miling...kuya alex at mang boy...sobrang miss ko na sila.

iba pa rin kapag bumabalik ka kung san ka nanggaling...sa lahat ng achivements ko...kung makikita ako ng miriam ngayon...they will be happy for they molded me to be an empowered woman to live in service ...

Im proud to be a Knoller/ miriamite....

2007-05-24T00:25:00.000+12:00

You Are 44% Open

You are a fairly open person, but you also like to maintain your privacy.
You definitely will tell all (okay, almost all) to your closest friends...
But strangers and acquaintances only get a peek into your life.

How Open Are You?

2007-05-24T00:22:00.000+12:00

*Just Roll the Dice and Have Fun*
In General
Does your phone still have a chord:	yung landline namin...oo meron pa rin
How do you feel about bad spelling:	ayos lang...di rin naman kasi ako ganon kagaling so sakto lang
What's great about living in the city:	madaming tao...daming adventure
What's great about living in the country:	tahimik...mapapaisip ka ng mataimtim
Do you talk to your neighbors:	sakto lang
Who are you jealous of:	wala naman...di ako selosa eh
Name 3 original Nintendo games:	mario, tetris, excite bike...tama ba?
Does taking a shower in someone elses house turn you on:	huh?
How old is your computer:	hmmm mga 5 yrs na ata
Do you avoid eye contact in the checkout line:	no...madalas ako pa yung nagsisimulang makipagtitigan eh
Do you look at tabloids in the checkout line:	hmmm paminsan
What was the last thing you overpaid for:	hmmm wala pa naman kung meron man di ko na tanda
Have you waited tables:	huh
Have you worked retail:	di pa
More Insight
Where do you park your car:	sa garahe namin sa parking space
Most wrong thing in society:	wala naman talagang democracy eh...imbento
Next city you'd like to visit:	hmmm phuket
What foreign country gets the most unfair reputation:	hmmmm ano nga ba?yung mga country sa africa siguro
Do you have a retirement plan:	wala di pa nga ako nagstastart magtrabaho eh
Favorite junk food:	cheese ring hello panda
Do you drink enough water:	oo naman...buhay ko yun
Hard floors or carpet:	wooden hard floors
Most hated cable station:	wala kaming cable eh
What celebrity can you not stand:	hmmmm sino nga ba?
If you could play a sport, and be a star for a living - what sport:	lawn tennis
Most underrated actor:	hmmm wala naman
Favorite car:	beetle saka yung bago ng rav4
Cozy shopping (streetside) or overbuilt super centers (Targets etc):	streetside parang 168 lang
Deeper
Do you tell little lies to protect the people you love:	minsan...
Have you had sex while in a room with other people:	sex nga di ko pa nagagawa with other people pa...ayos ka lang?
Sexier: Beach or Forest:	forest...ang wild hahahah
Is there a relationship you never had that you wish you did:	YEAH...isang malaking OO
Do you drink too much sometimes:	no...yung saktong kaya kong makauwi ng nagcocommute
Name a bad habit to have:	smoking
Do you want to kiss someone else just once:	ayoko ngang nagpapahalik eh...
Who is your 'If just once' person (If you don't understand don't answer):	di kogets
Do you sleep naked:	no...at ayoko
Sexiest place to do it:	sa banyo...hahahahh
Random Garbage
Are you bored yet:	yeah
Nastiest flying insect:	ipis...as in
Type of weather you hate:	hmmm yung weather ngayon sa pinas...ang init
Last time you cleaned the refrigerator:	hmmm matagal na yun...na ako yung naglinis ah
Do you use a dictionary:	oo naman
Do you follow the financial markets:	no
Do you mismanage your money:	minsan
Are you too judgemental:	hahaha OO
Do you wish you would have with someone that you didn't:	hmmm yeah
What body feature would you change:	figure ko...kailangan pang magbawas
Last thing you bought at the store:	hmmm lesson plan ntbk at iba pang supplies
Where do you want to live:	sa isang mataas na lugar tulad ng tagaytay
Favorite type of coffee:	hmmm cafe au lait
Name the ideal body style that you'd like to date:	hmmm yung tamang katawan lang yung may mayayakap ako pero medyo hunk
Does personality override that style:	hmmm minsan
Think a moment . . . then name a random country:	maldives
Hate more: Flying or going on a boat:	flying
Scarier: Alone with vicious animals or dangerous people:	dangerous people
Something that's just "Too big" in your house:	hmmm wala naman ako na siguro yun...heheheh
Pool or spa:	pool
Are you sick of fast food:	di naman sakto lang
Have you slept on cement:	yeah...hahahCOMELEC
This survey was . . .:	a ok
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para kay paula

2007-05-20T17:28:00.000+12:00

the moment i understood the meaning of this song..i eventually thought of you...i may be gone somewhere but my love for you will always be forever...my feelings for you will never change but i know i cant stay with you forever...today im letting go of a promise...i know this may sound sickening for i always tell people i have let go of you...but starting the day i learned to sing this song whole heartedly that is the time i fallen out of my promise...

Steep
by lauren christy

Softly, gently, I will let you down
Cause I don't love you in the same way now
I can hold you but not with lover's arms
Cause you are more of a brother to me now

And I can lie next to you, but I can't lie to you

So walk into the sun and watch me
Run into the rain,
For you the future's easy, so don't weep, for me it's getting
Steep

I loved you for exactly who you are,
And I'd say you've come the nearest yet by far,

And I can lie next to you, but I can't lie to you

So walk into the sun and watch me
Run into the rain,
For you the future's easy, so don't weep, for me it's getting

Steeper and in the dark that's where I want to be
Deeper, I'm going somewhere you won't want to see...

So walk into the sun and watch me
Run into the rain,
For you the future's easy, so don't weep
Yes I will watch you,
Walk into the sun and watch me
Run into the rain drops
For you the future's easy, so don't weep
For me it's getting
Steep.

i hate you

2007-05-18T02:15:00.000+12:00

matagal tagal na rin na nagdabog ako ng
ganon sa harap ng maraming tao.oh well
ako talaga yung tipo ng taong di madaling
magalit eh.sobrang oo i tend to hide
what im feeling, try to say that
everything is ok but then, deep down
inside i just want to hit them.pero
yung kanina napuno talaga ako.i wont tell
the name of the person...kasi ako...
may respeto pa rin ako sa kanya.pareho
kaming tao...alam ko yun...nagkataon lang
na pakiramdam ko ang tingin nya sa sarili
niya ay isang Diyos na para bang siya
ang dapat igalang at wala na siyang paki
alam sa nararamdaman ng iba.
para kang multo sa buhay ko, utang na loob
tantanan mo na ako...alam mo ba FIRST time
may nagalit sa aking teacher na sobrang
dinamdam niya na tulad ng ginagawa mo.
as in...di ako mayabang pero eversince
gradeschool i really have this good relations
with my teacher...yung iba hanggang dulo
we treat each other as friends...alam ko
i cant please everybody...but God can you
just stop being present in my life.para kang
multo eh.ok na ako eh...di naman kita
binabastos kapag nagkakasalubong tayo sa
school...i never bad mouthed you or anything
to other people.but to treat our class
like that...God its a different story...
para kang bata...sabi mo wala na yun sayo pero you haven't moved on...
tulad ng sabi ko...mapapatawad lang kita
kapag na prove ko na yung sarili ko.
but at the brighter side...you helped me
to be strong and to be firm with what i
believed in...but then there are
times that we just have to conform with things.

nga pala sana pagkaalis ko ng uste wag
ka ng magmulto...kasi di ko na talaga yun
matatagalan...

I JUST SO HATE YOU....

di na natuto

2007-05-08T23:56:00.000+12:00

ilang araw ko na bang dinadala tong bagay na to.last week pa ata ako sobrang gulo gulo.ang weird kasi,ako naman ang pumasok sa sitwasyong to.alam ko naman yun eh kaya walang ibang dapat sisihin sa nararamdaman ko o sa pinagdadaanan ko kundi ako lang din. (on the contrary sinabihan na ako ni julie na wag nang sisihin ang sarili ko dahil walang may kasalanan.) I cant really tell the things that happened...i just wanted to shut my mouth about it.alam mo kung bakit...kasi nahihiya ako sa buong mundo...kasi kung nasasakatan man ako..KAGAGAWAN KO RIN NAMAN...at ayokong sisihin siya dahil wala siyang kasalanan (diba kapakanan na naman niya ang nasa isip ko).

tanga lang talaga ako...tanga lang talaga ako.

i received this quote last night..and it made my crying last night more intense that i looked for our picture and tear everything into pieces.i never imagined myself doing it, but last night im so fed up with what im feeling that tearing the picture apart made me feel...a little less better.

"certain moments repeat themselves... We often find ourselves faced by the same problems and situations... and seeing this difficult situations return, we grow depressed thinking that we are incapable of making any progress in life...But we realize that this experiences have but ONE aim: TO TEACH US WHAT WE DO NOT WANT TO LEARN..."

kaboom...ilang beses na bang nangyaring bumalik ka...at ano...INIWAN MO AKO SA ERE...nagmukhang tanga umasa at ngayon...di ko matanggap...pero dumating pa ako sa puntong may sinasakatan na akong tao...di man niya alam...still sa konsensya ko alam ko mali yung ginagawa ko.ANO BANG PROBLEMA MO???? BAKIT BA KUNG SAKTAN MO AKO GANON GANON NA LANG....wala akong ginawa kundi maging mabait sayo...PORKET ALAM MONG MAHINA AKO PAGDATING SAYO...PORKET ALAM MONG DI KITA KAYANG TIISIN KAYA ANG LAKAS NG LOOB MONG GAWIN TO...gustong gusto mo akong iniiwan...ikaw na nga tong nakikiusap...hindi mali... NAGMAMAKAAWA na wag kitang iwan...AKO NAMAN SI TANGA...DI KITA MAHINDIAN...kaya kahit mali...kahit may sasaktan akong tao...DI KITA INIWAN...pero anong ginawa mo...HANDA AKONG MAGRISK PARA SAYO...pero ano...nasana ka...nasa lungga mo nagtatatago sa akin...PUTANG INA NAMAN....kung alam mo lang hanggang sa huli pinagtatakpan pa rin kita...

ilang beses na tong nangyari eh...ilang beses na pero AYOKO LANG MATUTO...hindi ko lang kasi matanggap na di pwede....PUTANG INA ALAM NYO BANG GALIT NA GALIT AKO SA SARILI KO NGAYON....di ko gawain manloko ng tao...at sobrang nakokonsensya ako BIG TIME...tama na LOUISE...TANGGAPIN NA LANG NATING LOSER SIYA...at LOSER TALAGA SIYA...

MAGTANDA NA SANA AKO....AND JUST TO MAKE MYSELF HAPPY....I HATE YOU...I SO HATE YOU....

Rebound
by Silent Sanctuary

Oh kay bilis naman magsawa ng puso mo
Ganyan ka ba talaga bigla na lang naglalaho
Para bang walang nangyari di mo man lang sinabi

Sana'y hindi na lang pinilit pa
Wala ring patutunguhan kahit sabihin ko pang mahal kita
Nalulungkot,nayayamot,nagmumukmok
Hindi ko pa yata kaya pang labanan ang damdamin ko

Nakakainis talaga nagmukha tuloy akong tanga
Pinaasa mo kasi puso ko ngayon tuloy lumuluha
Dahil iniwan mo kong mag-isa limang araw lang ay ba-bye na

Sana'y hindi na lang pinilit pa
Wala ring patutunguhan kahit sabihin ko pang mahal kita
Nalulungkot,nayayamot,nagmumukmok
Hindi ko pa yata kaya pang labanan ang damdamin ko

(instrumental)

Rebound mo lang pla ako. . .

(instrumental)

Sana'y hindi na lang pinilit pa
Wala ring patutunguhan kahit sabihin ko pang mahal kita...
Nalulungkot,nayayamot,nagmumukmok
Hindi ko pa yata kaya pang labanan ang damdamin ko..
Sana'y hindi na lang pinilit pa
Wala ring patutunguhan kahit sabihin ko pang mahal kita...

*** hanggang sa huli pinagtanggol pa rin kita...ako kaya kailan mo ipaglalaban at itatago ang tunay mong nadarama***

celebration

2007-05-03T00:18:00.000+12:00

di ko na tinuloy yung gifts ko kay shane...naisip ko mas ok kung bibigyan ko siya ng gift it would be something na lahat ng tao will celebrate into...

sa itsura ni shane...mukha namang masaya siya...

actually kaya ako labas ng labas kasi ayokong personally siyang mag thankyou...i dont know...nahihiya kaya ako kanina...sa akin kasi sapat ng makita kong masaya yung tao...di na kailangan pang marinig ko yun verbally...

sa mga classmates and friends ko who cooperated with my surprise...salamat...kung masaya siya...mas masaya ako...

ang sarap makitang...kahit isang beses eh nagkasama sama sa pagkain ng cake ang mga tao...dahil yun sa birthday ni shane

2007-04-29T21:21:00.000+12:00

*A 155 Question MySpace Survey...With Good Grammar!*
*~The Basics~*
Your full name::	maria louise domingo pante
--What does it mean?::	ang alin..pangalan ko?ang maria ibig sabihin nun blessed tas louise heroine...so blessed heroine...im a hero...
Your birthday::	september 6, 1986
Height::	5'2 1/2
Eye colour::	dark brown
--Do you like it?::	yeah
Natural hair colour::	dark brown
--Do you like it?::	oo naman
Gender::	female...hahahahaha
Religion::	roman catholic
--Have you ever changed religions?::	di naman...pero dati nung first yr college ako pinangarap kong maging buddhist
--Would you consider it?::	yeah...diba nga naisip kong magpalit dati
Race::	filipino...isa akong kayumangging asyano
Heritage::	filipino...
--Do you like your heritage?::	oo naman..
Where do you live?::	sa balara
Have you ever moved cities or countries?::	yeah
Your job::	USTEdiyante
--Do you enjoy it?::	oo naman
*~Favourites~*
Movie::	the village, godzilla,wedding singer,shutter,Now that I have you,JOLOGs,Bagets 1 and 2 saka working girls 1
TV show::	hmmm card captor sakura, only you, metor garden, all abt 1 %,my name is kim sam soon, princess hours, abt ur love
TV character::	sakura, sailor mercury
Movie character::	hmmm wala
Book::	stella in heaven, after eden, she say he say
Literary character::	wala
Author::	anne rice, mitch albom, paulo coehlo,arnold arre,bob ong,neil geiman
Band::	silent sanctuary,mojofly,imago,sheila and the insects,urbandub,paramita, up dharma down
Song::	stay ni carol banawa saka because of you ni Neyo
Type of music::	kahit ano...basta wag masyadong mainga tas di ko na gets yung lyrics
Instrument::	violin saka piano at guitara
Cereal::	hmmm corn flakes
Fast food place::	KFC saka shakey's at pizza hut
Dessert::	choc nut ice cream
Country::	maldives
City::	quezon city
Place to travel::	gusto ko ma tour buong asia
Airline::	ah...wala
Shampoo/conditioner::	wala din
Lotion::	wala
Subject in school::	filipino
Teacher::	ms lacson, ms. roman,sir aris, sir dayag, sir castro, ms boots, ma'am carillio, ma'am vindollo
Province::	aklan
State (if you're American)::
Football team::	wala
Hockey team::	wala
Athlete::	wala
Sport to play::	badminto, lawn tennis
Sport to watch::	basket ball saka soccer
Fruit::	watermelon saka apple at banana, ayun buko pa pala
Vegetable::	kangkong
Snack::	pizza
Meal::	hmmmm happy meal...hahahhaa
Restaurant::	lutong macau
Grocery store::	mini stop
*~Have You Ever~*
Gone on a blind date?::	muntik na
Flown in an airplane?::	yeah
Thrown up on an airplane?::	no
Peed in the shower?::	oo
Peed your pants after you hit double digits?::	no
Enjoyed Shakespeare?::	oo naman...lalo na yung midsummer night's dream
Been to the opera?::	no
Been to the theatre?::	yeah
Streaked?::	huh
Seen a streaker?::	ano yun
Been mooned?::	huh?
Mooned someone?::	ano yun?
Flipped someone off?::	hala
Been in a fist fight?::	di pa naman
Been drunk?::	yeah
Had alcohol poisoning?::	no
Been walked in on while you're naked?::	no
Slept in a snowbank?::	walang snow sa pinas eh
Made a snow angel?::	wala ngang snow dito
Lost any teeth?::	yeah
Been in the hospital?::	opo
Been in a major accident?::	yeah
Burnt yourself?::	hmmm opo
Passed out?::	hmmm passed out...passed out sa health setting o sa school?
Watched a soap opera you didn't understand?::	di noh
Prank called 911?::	walang 911 dito
Made fun of emos?::	di ah
Acted like an emo, just to see what it's like?::	no i dont and would not
Cheated on a test?::	oo
Cheated on a boyfriend/girlfriend?::	ay hindi...mabait kaya ako
Lied to get out of trouble?::	yeah
Started a fire?::	no
Roasted a marshmallow?::	haven't
Set a marshmallow on fire?::	no
--How many times?::	di pa nga eh
Wanted to drop out of school?::	dati...nung gs ako
--Did you?::	no
*~Randoms~*
Are you single or dating?::	taken
If single...do you like anyone?::	kulit....
--If so, who?::	hahaha may bf nga ako
--Why?::	may bf nga ako eh
--Do you have a chance with them?::	hahaha kulit ka din
If taken...who?::	si JB po
--How long?::	days pa lang...3 days pa lang
--Are you happy?::	oo naman
Last 4 digits of your phone number::	3859
Your house number::	2090
Why are you taking this survey?::	wala lang...para may blog entry...hahaha
What school do you go to?::	university of santo tomas
--Do you like it?::	oo naman
Your school colours?::	black and gold
Your school teams' name?::	tigers
Ever been on a sports team?::	nung gs ako
--If yes, what was the name of it?::	hmmm wala eh
--Did you enjoy it?::	oo naman
What do you want to be when you grow up?::	a teacher...saka dep ed secretary
--Why?::	pangarap ko yun paki mo ba
Any plans for the near future?::	maka tapo at mahabol ang grade ko for grad honors...kung kaya ko pa ah...
What are your views on capital punishment?::	minsan agree ako minsan hindi...taong walang disposisyon...hahaha
--Nuclear weapons?::	masama yun...
--Euthanasia?::	isa pa to...pero
--The Canadian government?::	huh
--The American government?::	aba ma
--The European Union?::	ayos lang naman...for globalization din yun...tamo ang lakas ng europe ngayon
--The UN?::	kung wala sila siguro ang gulo gulo ng mundo
--Can you tell me who the Secretary-General of the UN is?::	di ko kilala...ay nako ano ba namang historu teacher yan
What was your favourite grade of elementary school?::	huh...di ko gets yung tanong pero kung level memorable yr siguro nung gr6 ako
--Why?::	kasi...secret
What are you wearing right now?::	shorts at shirt
--Any particular reason why?::	nasa bahay lang naman ako anong gusto mo nakagown
What was the last thing you ate?::	mani
If you were a crayon, what colour would you be?::	RED
How are you feeling today?::	ang init...asar
How many keys are on your keychain?::	walang key ang mga key chain ko eh
--What are they for?::	bling bling
What does the room you're in look like?::	blue...kuwartong panlalaki
--Do you like the room?::	ayos lang
Do you own an iPod?::	hindi pero gusto kong magkaroon
--If yes, what kind?::	yung 30gb hahahah
Do you wear glasses or contacts?::	dapt kaso ayoko
What's your view on laser eye surgery?::	mas ok yun kasi nakakairita kaya mag glasses
--Would you ever consider it?::	hindi naman ganon kalala ang mga mata ko
Weirdest thing about your parents::	wala naman lahat naman kami dito weird so parang normal na lang
What did you do this weekend?::	ako...nung sat nasa bahay lang nagpahinga, tas kanina nagpunta kami sa pilot kasi kumpil ng dalawa kong pinsan...tas mamaya gagawa ako ng hw
--Was it enjoyable?::	ayos naman...kaso guilty dami kong nakain
What's your greatest fear?::	maiwanan at mawalan
Your greatest strength?::	ano nga ba...siguro pagiging masayahin ko at plastik sa tunay na nararamdaman...lesser pain kasi
What country do you fear the most::	wala naman
Have you ever been in a third-world country?::	bansa ko third world
--Would you ever want to live in one?::	nakatira na nga ako sa third world eh
What song do you have stuck in your head right now?::	so sick...
Will poverty ever end?::	hanggat may tatsulok at sila ang nasa tuktok di matatapos itong gulo
--Why or why not?::	ayun nga eh
Will we destroy our own planet?::	oo
--How?:	kapag tumalino ang tao at naging abusado
Man--inherently good, or inherently evil?::	inherently good
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just check my friendster profile to understand

2007-04-27T15:23:00.000+12:00

Come What May

by Air Supply

When (s)he looks at me

I know the (girl) boy sees things

Nobody else can see

All of the secret fears inside

All of the craziness I hide

(S)he looks into my soul

And reads me like nobody can

And (s)he doesn't judge the man

(S)he just takes me as I am

CHORUS

Come what may, (s)he believes

And that faith is something

I've never known before

Come what may, (s)he loves me

And that love has helped me open a door

Making me love myself a little more

When I turn away

(S)he knows those are the times

There's nothing left to say

Nothing that anyone can do

And so (s)he lets me live it through

And when I'm in my darkest hours of uncertainty

(S)he just simply lets me be

And goes right on loving me

CHORUS

And when it seems my dreams

Have all slipped through my fingers

When they just can't be found

I turn around and there they are

Shining in (her) his eyes

CHORUS

this is what i feel...i just to be dead right now

2007-04-25T16:45:00.000+12:00

yeng constantino - cool off

Wag ka munang magalit

ako sana'y pakinggan

Hindi ko balak na ika'y saktan

Hindi ikaw ang problema,

wala akong iba

Di tulad ng iyong hinala

[Refrain]

Sarili ay di maintindihan

Hindi ko malaman,

ano ba ang dahilan ng

Pansamantalang paghingi ko ng kalayaan

Minamahal kita pero kailangan ko lang mag-isa

[Chorus]

Huwag mong isipin na hindi ka na mahal

Sarili ko'y hahanapin ko lang

At ang panahon at ang oras ng pagkawala

Ay para rin sa ating dalawa

Wag ka sanang lumuha, sana'y intindihin

Ito ang dapat nating gawin

Upang magkakilala pa at malaman

Kung tayo ay para sa isa't isa

Wag mong pigilin ang damdamin

Sa aking pagkawala makahanap ka bigla ng iba

Ngunit pakatandaan na mahal pa rin kita

Pero kailangan ko lang mag-isa

(Repeat Chorus)

(Repeat Refrain)

(Repeat Chorus)

im afraid fo taking risks...im sorry im too selfish i know...but i dont want to feel this way anymore...just leave me alone...

something to be happy about

2007-04-23T22:38:00.000+12:00

matagal na naming pangarap to ni loveanne...at sana totoo toh...at syet isisiksik ko ito sa sched ko kahit ikamatay ko pa...nyeta

sabi ni ermine...iniinvite daw kami ni ms.roman na kumanta sa concert ng glee club this year...whaaattt as in OMG talaga...i will sing...dance...syet...i miss singing up stage...practicing piece...singing every notes and giving my heart to it...

that is something to be happy about...

2007-04-23T22:28:00.000+12:00

*t r u e or f a l s e (:*
true or false ?
you're a girl:	ah...ano nga ba?syet hirap sagutin...
you're in high school:	FALSE
you own a dog:	false
you're an only child:	false
you've eaten out with a bunch of friends:	true
you're single:	technically true
you're bored:	false
you have an AIM sn:	false
your last cellphone bill was over the top:	false
you get mad easily:	false
you find yourself with a lot of energy at the randomest of times:	true
you currently like someone:	TRUE
you regret something that you've done:	true
others have called you pretty or cute:	true
you like to watch tv:	hmmm pwede or
you like playing with your hair:	false
your hair is brown:	hmmm somewhat true
you have a secret that no one knows:	true
you've kissed someone you shouldn't have:	false
you've had a bf/gf before:	true
you've been dumped before:	true
you shop or have shoped at victoria's secret:	false
in the past month you have watched a movie:	true
in the past month you have cut your hair:	false
in the past month you have gone swimming:	true
in the past month you have gone to a party:	false
you have crashed a party before:	false
you have gone to a party thrown by someone you don't even know:	true
you are huggable:	hmmm wan ko
you like to play video games:	sakto lang
you like/LOVE to shop:	false
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2007-04-21T01:05:00.000+12:00

*First Loves/Ex's/New*
.::First Loves::.
Whats his/her name?:	sheila
Where Did you meet?:	sa mc sa may covered courts
Did his/her family like you?:	ayos naman...ok ako sa mom nya...sobra
Did your family like him/her?:	hmmm di nila nameet eh...pero sa nanay ko hindi..hehehe mahabang kuwento
Do you Still Love him/her?:	as a friend...oo...
Does He/she Still Love you?:	sana as a friend din
Would You give him/her a second chance?:	hmmm mas ok kaming friends eh
.::Ex's::.
Who was your last bf/gf?:	si pau
Was he a good guy/girl?:	oo naman...maalaga at sobrang sweet
Did you guys fight alot?:	hmmm a couple of times pero di naman palagi
Why did you break up?:	hmmm ewan ko...actually its been 2 yrs pero di ko pa rin alam kung bakit
Did he/she cheat?:	hmmm
Did You cheat?:	NO
.::New Bf/gf's::.
Whats his/her name?:	JB
Are You happy?:	oo naman...halata ba?
Do you regret anything?:	wala po
If you could change one thing..what would it be?:	hmmm di ako magpapakaplastik pero yung sitwasyon namin
Do you spend enough time with them?:	hmmm quality time...dibuh?
Is love involved yet?:	oo naman...pero we know for a fact na mas mahal niya ako kaysa sa mahal ko siya
Do you think you'll last?:	sana...as in sana talaga...technically he is or siya yung magiging una kong BF eh
.::MOre Questions::.
How long were you and your first love together?:	3month 1 week and 4days...sakto...
do you regret anything with THEM?:	dun sa pangalawa oo meron
Is there any past relationship that you wished never would have happened?:	hmmm wala naman
Which ex bf do you want to punch right now?:	si pau...hahaha nanggigil ako sa kanya eh
WHO ARE YOU IN LOVE WITH AT THIS MOMENT?:	John Benedict Ludovico
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Ikaw lamang

2007-04-18T02:45:00.000+12:00

Di ko maintindihan
Ang nilalaman ng puso
Tuwing magkahawak ang ating kamay
Pinapanalangin lagi tayong magkasama
Hinihiling bawat oras kapiling ka

Sa lahat ng aking ginagawa
Ikaw lamang ang nasa isip ko sinta
Sana’y di na tayo magkahiwalay
Kahit kailan pa man

Ikaw lamang ang aking minamahal
Ikaw lamang ang tangi kong inaasam
Makapiling ka habang buhay
Ikaw lamang sinta
Wala na kong hihingin pa
Wala na

Ayoko ng maulit pa
Ang nakaraang ayokong maalala
Bawat oras na wala ka
Parang mabigat na parusa
Huwag mong kakalimutan na kahit nag-iba
Hindi ako tumigil magmahal sayo sinta

Sa lahat ng aking ginagawa
Ikaw lamang ang nasa isip ko sinta
Sana’y di na tayo magkahiwalay
Kahit kailan pa man

Ikaw lamang ang aking minamahal
Ikaw lamang ang tangi kong inaasam
Makapiling ka habang buhay
Ikaw lamang sinta
Wala na kong hihingin pa
Wala na

last night and today...i realized that no matter what i do everything leads me back to the reality that it is only you i want to be with NOW.maybe what made me decide on doing things all over again is for a fact that I really cant decide on things today...that I have to slow things first...and yes it helped me a lot...NOW i know what i want and a while ago I lift it all to God...and I hope His own time will be the RIGHT time.hope YOU will wait for me...cause I know for sure that I am here PATIENTLY WAITING for you...and the last night call is what I have been looking for all this time.I can say that last night was definitely a proof that you have that thing I have been looking for...thank you for making me laugh and smile last night. and yes I thank YOU (God) for doing things in your own time and in your own design...you definitely have surprising ways to make me realize and grasp things the way you want me to understand your WILL.

elnumero otcho

2007-04-17T04:29:00.000+12:00

first day of classes.natulog ako ng maaga at sinigurado ko na nakaalarm yung phone ko dahil naka vacation mode pa talaga ako.tama naman...nakatulog naman ako ng mahimbing at nagising naman sa tamang oras.naisipan kong magbus kanina, siguro dahil na rin first day.heheheh.

dumating ako sa school 6:45 ang aga para sa 7:30 class ko...talk about being excited.tambay muna ako sa pav, tas nakita ko si julian. tas si nomer tapos si abi...nagkuwentuhan lang kami sandali tas umakyat na rin ako.

after a while dumating na rin ang prof ko sa comp lect.after an hour, dinismiss na rin nya kami.next subject...sem ed at buti na lang at si ma'am picadizzo ang teacher namin.wala kaming ginawa sa class niya dahil sabi niya wala pa naman yung equipment tas first day naman daw.saya talaga.so sa time nya nagdaldalan lang kami. maaga din kaming pinalabas ni ma'am picadizzo, at habang naghihintay for the next subject tinignan ko ang uniform namin for practicum.maganda naman...in fairness....compared dun sa mga nauna...sobrang maganda na yung amin.

dahil bagot na kami ni shane pumasok na lang muna kami sa comp lab.pagpasok namin sa loob, nalaman namin na di kailangang alphabetically arrange so namili na kami ng aming computer table.goodluck naman di ko alam kung bakit ko pinili ang number 8.sobrang nakakahiya pa nga, kasi nagpakaselfish ako kay martin at di ako umurong sa comp9.sorry talaga, i have this feeling na i want to prove na di na jinx ang numerong 8 sa akin.and yes...now 8 is a sacred number for me, kasama ng numerong 3.after an hour pumayag na si ma'am ramirez na mag internet na kami.una kong ginawa, magbukas ng multiply...tas trinay kong mag blog kaso di niya binubuksan yung blog ko para makapagpost, same as friendster.so napagdesisyunan kong magbasa na lang ng mga artiks sa peyups.com. isa sa mga artiks na nabasa ko ay ehto... (this maybe a long entry.)

Third Eye
Contributed by istaRr (Edited by amplifier)
Tuesday, January 30, 2007 @ 12:00:17 AM
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Sigurado raw na mararamdaman mo kapag may multong malapit sa iyo. Tatayo ang balahibo sa batok mo... Biglang lalamig ang paligid... Iikot ang tiyan mo... Para kang biglang may kasama. May mararamdaman ka sa paligid mo kahit alam mong ikaw lang mag-isa.

Bata pa lang ako, matatakutin na ako. Takot ako sa dilim, humihina ako kapag mag-isa. Hindi ko rin kayang manood ng mga nakakatakot na palabas sa TV (gaya ng taunang November 1 special ng magandang gabi bayan), o mga pelikula (uso noon ang shake rattle and roll). Ang palagay ko, bakit mo pagdaraanin ang sarili mo sa nakapanlalambot na hilakbot? Mas lalong ayokong makakita, o makaramdam, o makaengkwentro ng multo. Hindi ko yata kakayanin. Baka himatayin ako sa takot. Hindi ko nga maintindihan 'yung mga taong sumasali pa sa mga workshop para buksan ang third eye nila. Bakit di ba? Bakit?! Pero siguro, ako lang talaga 'yun--- kulang sa tapang, liglig ng nerbiyos.

Hindi ko naiwan sa pagkabata ang takot ko sa dilim, at sa multo. Sa paglaki ko, nadagdagan pa nga ang mga takot ko--- tumaba, magka-cancer, bumagsak sa mga klase ko, at marami pang iba. Pero higit sa lahat ng mga ito, ang magmahal at masaktan. Natuklasan ko na hindi gaya ng takot ko sa mga multong ni hindi ko nga alam kung gawa sa hamog, o sa usok, o basta gawa lang ng imahinasyon ko--- mas nakapanghihina, mas nakapanghihilakbot pala ang magmahal at masaktan. Naranasan ko na iyon. Ang magmahal, mawalan, at halos mabaliw sa sakit. Nang mawala ka sa 'kin para akong sira-ulong ayaw maniwala at ayaw tumanggap, parang praning na ipinipilit sa sariling "babalik siya.... babalik siya."

May mga namamatayan ng kapamilya o kaibigan na sa tindi ng pangungulila, hinihiling nila na magmulto ang namayapa na. Hindi na mahalaga kung kahibangan ito--- mabigyan lang ng kahit isa pang pagkakataon na makausap o masilayan man lang ang mahal sa buhay na inagaw na ng kamatayan.

Nang nawala ka, handa akong ibigay ang lahat, ang kahit ano, bumalik ka lang kahit sandali. Kahit sa anong paraan. kahit isang maikling text lang, o e-mail, o friendster message. Maramdaman ko lang na kahit tapos na ang lahat, mahalaga pa rin ako sa iyo. Pero walang dumating. Ni hindi ka man lang nagparamdam. Kahit na parang ritwal ko nang tinatawag ang pangalan mo gabi-gabi, wala. Wala ka na talaga. Naging mas madali nga ang pagtanggap sa pumanaw nating pagkakataon, pero kasabay nito, mas naging mapait naman ang aking pag-aayuno.

Tuloy ang buhay. Kailangan e. Natuto akong magmahal ng iba at unti-unti ring nawala ang lungkot. Naniniwala rin naman akong mayroon akong karapatang maging masaya, at mas gusto kong ngumiti kaysa umiyak. Nariyan naman ang ala-ala mo, nariyan ang pag-ibig na kahit kailan ay hindi ko na maibibigay sa iba bukod sa iyo. Pero sabi nga ng idol kong si Sharon Cuneta, "once you love someone, you never stop loving them. you just love them in newer ways." (mula sa "kung ako na lang sana"). Habang nagmamahal ako ng bagong pag-ibig, patuloy pa rin kitang minamahal. Alam ko iyan. Naroon na rin siguro ang kaalamang dahil patay na nga ang panahon natin sa paningin ni kupido, hindi ko na kailangan buhayin pa ang sakit. Tanggap ko na. Paminsan minsan nga, dinadalaw pa ng diwa ko ang mga nakakalat na lapida ng ating nakaraan. Kapag nakakarating ako sa mga lugar na noo'y nakasama kita, kapag naririnig ko ang mga awit na pinili ko para sa 'ting dalawa--- para na rin akong nagtitirik ng kandila at nag-aalay ng bulaklak sa ala-ala mo.

Hanggang sa nagmulto ka. P*ksh*t.

Ang sabi nila, hindi tumatawid sa kabilang buhay ang mga espiritung may mga hindi pa tapos na misyon sa mundong ito. Pakiramdam nila, may mga transaksyon pa sila sa kanilang buhay na kailangang isara at maisakatuparan. Ang iba nga raw, hindi pa tanggap na patay na sila kaya ayaw pa umalis. palutang-lutang sila, patuloy ang "buhay", ginagawa pa rin ang mga pinagkakaabalahan nila noon. Ang iba naman, sadyang naghahasik ng takot at pangamba. Sadyang gustong makarinig ng mga tili at makakita ng nasindak na mga mukha habang nagsasabog sila ng lagim.

Simpleng text lang, umikot ang mundo ko. Hindi ko alam kung magdiriwang ako o manlulumo. Nakakatuwang nakakatakot e. Sa tagal ng panahon na hinintay kong maramdaman ka, hanggang sa nalimutan ko na nga kung bakit, hindi ko na alam kung ano ang reaksyon ko. Pero, napatunayan ko noon na totoo pala: kapag minulto ka, tatayo ang balahibo sa batok mo, manlalamig ka, iikot ang tiyan mo, at sigurado ka sa presensiya ng multo sa paligid mo.

"Nabuhay" kang muli sa mundo ko. Lagi ka na namang nariyan sa haraya ko. Pa’no, dumalas ka mag-text, tumatawag ka pa, paminsan minsan nagkakape pa tayo’t tumatawa habang nilulunod ang ating mga sarili sa venti mocha frap with mint syrup. Matagal na panahon akong nangulila ako sa iyo, kaya ang saya saya saya ko sa tuwing nariyan ka. Kahit paminsan-minsan. Kahit paunti-unti. Dahil nga mahal naman kita, tinanggap ko ang pagmumulto mo. Sabi ko, wala naman sigurong masama, pakiramdam ko pa nga ang tapang ko. Hinayaan ko nang bukas ang third eye ng puso ko.

Lubos na sana ang magiging kasiyahan ko kung tuluyan ang iyong pagbabalik... pero lagi ka rin namang nawawala. Hindi ko alam kung bakit ginagawa niyong mga multo iyon, parang gustong gusto niyong nagpaparamdam, manggugulat, tapos mawawala naman. Hindi ka naman nagtatagal sa mga dahilang ikaw lang ang nakaaalam. Noong simula hinihintay pa kita lagi, pero nakakapagod rin. Mahirap pala 'yun. Mahirap pala magmahal ng kaluluwa--- hindi kita mahawakan, hindi kita mayakap, hindi kita mahalikan. Malamig na hangin na lang ba talaga ang magiging katumbas ng pag-ibig ko?

Para sa mga taong may kakayahang makakita ng mga espiritu at ibang nilalang, wala raw ibang mas maiging gawin kundi tanggapin ito. Sumpa man o biyaya, hindi na mahalaga. May dahilan lahat ng bagay sa mundo. Baka nga paraan na rin ng Diyos na buksan ang ikatlong mata't ikaanim na pandama ng ilang tao sa mundo... mabigyan man lamang ng pagkakataon ang mga alagad ng kabilang buhay na marinig at maintindihan.

Mahal pa rin kita. Pakiramdam ko, alam mo naman iyon e, kaya ka nga matapang magmulto. Pero magkaiba na tayo ng mundo, marami nang nagbago. Hindi ko maintindihan kung bakit kailangan mong magparamdam gayong wala ka na rin namang kayang gawin na paraan upang tuluyang magbalik, upang muling mabuhay sa mundo ko. Nang-aasar ka lang ba talaga sa pagdalaw mo? Kung hindi, ano ba ang "unfinished business" mo? Ano bang maitutulong ko? Sapat na ba sa iyo ang ganito--- ang mahalin natin ang isa't isa sa magkabilang mundo, sa magkaibang paraan? Iyon lang kasi ang maibibigay ko. At alam ko... hanggang du'n lang rin ang kaya mo.

Patuloy na tatakbo ang buhay ko. At sa tuwing mumultuhin mo ako, ngingiti na lang ako. Oo, tatayo pa rin ang mga balahibo ko sa batok, manlalamig at iikot pa rin ang tiyan ko... Pero hindi na ako matatakot.

Hindi ka totoo.

after kong basahin ang artikulong yan ay napag-isipan kong magbasa ng mga entry na nakadate sa 8...mula june 8...sept 8...dec 8 binasa ko at hinanap...hanggang sa mapunta ako sa artik na ito...

Why Do I Love Her?
Contributed by eya (Edited by amplifier)
Monday, August 01, 2005 @ 12:01:44 AM
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Why do I love her and not him, and him, and another him? Well, I can’t bring myself to love them; I can’t bring myself to even try. I had experiences with other hims and what I have with her now is simply different. Way different.

Why do I love her? Loving her has no reasons. I just simply do. And that’s just one difference between loving her and loving them hims: loving them has to have reasons because otherwise there’s no point in loving them at all.

I love her not because she loves me back. There are others who love me, others who would be willing to love me, others who would care for me. But I don’t need them—it’s her I need. Her warmth, understanding, acceptance, affection, beauty, temperament, mood swings, and flaws—I need all that. I need her.

It is only when I’m with her that I am most secure and comfortable. I can be anyone and anything when I’m with her. She accepts the whole of me and she understands my shortcomings. Whether I succeed or fail, I know she’ll be beside me.

She lets me grow as a person. I tend to let my world revolve around her and only her sometimes, as if there’s no one else in this world but the two of us. She knows that this isn’t healthy and that we have to have space for personal growth and time for ourselves. A stable relationship calls for stable individuals; and for our relationship to blossom and last for a long time, we both have to continue to develop and to mature together and individually.

Most importantly, while we are lovers, we are also best friends. After a tiring day, it would be nice to just talk to her—telling anecdotes, exchanging views, catching up on the going ons of each other’s lives. When all is said and done, she is not only my best friend, she is also my shock-absorber, my angel, my teddybear, my adviser, my inspiration, my motivation—my everything.

So understand that there are no reasons why I love her. I just do.

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To my inspiration: Thank you for everything.

oo nga...for a time sinupa ko na sa sarili kong sa babae lang ako mahuhulog...sa babae lang ako magmamahal...

after nun dahil 5mins na lang at time na clinose ko na yung window ng internet...hanggang sa maisipan kong magbasa ng blog...at sa di sinasadyang pagkakataon...naisipan kong basahin ang blog ni pau.

nagulat ako sa mga nangyari...para siyang multong napatayo ang balahibo ko...kinabahan na natuwa...bago ang lay out ng blog na sobrang tagal ng idle so naisip kong...she's into blogging na ulit.and the next things na nabasa ko...was a surprise..wala na sila...and the article was written on an 8th day...whoah...what's with 8's now a day.at isang entry at ngayon ko nga lang din narealize....*TODAY: manny paquiao won by knockout against solis in the 8th round*

oo...affected ako...sobra...its as if memories came rushing back to me...i hate it much as i hate myself for believing WE will be TOGETHER again.di ko alam ang nararamdaman ko ngayon...pero aminado ako...AFFECTED AKO sa mga nabasa ko sa blog niya...and yes siguro kaya ayokong nasosorpresa...

after that incident...scl9 naman...ayun lesson na agad..tas evaluation bukas...at may hw na dalawang chapters...saya...

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i guess i got pissed of a while ago not becuase i was informed late...it adds up to personal issues that i have with you guys...i guess ill just keep it to myself...and yes happiness cannot be forced...especially when you know to yoursefl there is somewhere else where you can be happy...even if it means you are ALONE

summer....classes

2007-04-11T01:33:00.000+12:00

i woke up early this morning...had a weird dream, plus the excitement that i am feeling for i will go back to ust today and see some friends...(nyeta gracia...umaga tayo magkasama umuwi ako di kita nakita...) and yes today was the day i thougth i would say yes...hahaha (but then again...maybe God have some other plans and the time is still just aint right.after my usual morning routine, I ate a sunnyside up for my breakfast and took a bath. I waited for my parents to arrive from their jogging. they came back past seven, then my father decided to drive for me up to simplicity, at least i would not walk that long with my heels, plus i am not use to wearing one even if it is only 2 weeks since I last wore them. At the gate my father noticed that it was still too early so he decided to just drive up to UST...talk about greatness and being lucky.

i arrived at ust at around 8am, talk about population, God there is so many freshmen a while ago at school...and to thick it was only the freshmen who would be housing at the main bldg whose there. and yes, there are the usual people i see around campus wearing those white, maroon,grey,blue and pink uniform. my dad dropped me infront of KFC, while walking near mcdo i saw vince...and i wa surpirsed to see him there...talk about greatness and being lucky again.

when i got to the pav i saw dasas and the rest of the science majors and i came along with them for i do not know where my other friends and blockmates were.we thought we could enroll even though we haven't got our clearance yet, but the person in charge in the enrollment area told us that we have to have a advising form. so we get back to our bldg and saw a long line of students who are getting their clearance. Abi saw me and they just let me through the line. after we got our clearance we went to the dean's office to get the form that we needed for the summer enrollment...and yes we saw the guy I have been crushing on since second semester...talk about greatness and being lucky.

after filling up the form we went to the main bldg to enroll.i was in hurry for jb told me that he would be there at 10:30 and yes it was 10:30 already and i am still fixing up some corrections in my reg form.after a tiring enrollment and so many troubles abi and i went to jollibee dapitan at exactly 11am and yes Jb wasn't there. i felt guilty for the last time we planned to see each other i mad him wait for 4hrs, then here i am 30mins late...late again.we waited for 15mins and i asked abi to get a cab, so that her friend would not be waiting for so long for her. Looking around a motorcycle came and I saw...hahahah Patrick...talk about greatness and being lucky.nad before he left he even smiled and waved hi at me...haaaayyy

I opted for a cheese sticks and C2 just to answer my grumbling stomach...i waited for almost an hour for JB..maybe its a way of telling me what it is to wait so long...and i realized i need to make it up to him.at 12 JB came and i asked if i can eat lunch first. I craved for food at family tree so we went there. upon looking for a place to sit down i saw wilmar and his girlfriend...then i decided to go upstairs for vacant chairs...then I saw pearl, jam, ben, rb, mark,xtian,kat and martin there.we decided just to sit downstairs. when i was thinking of what to eat...banag and marven came...call this what but we're all surprised to see that we are all in the same place.

after eating JB took me home. we rode a bus from espana to commonwealth.when we're walking to our house I saw that our FX is nowhere to be found so I thought that my dad and mom is not at home. JB did not enter the house...(nahihiya daw kapal ng buhok niya eh). I saw my mom taking a nap and i asked if what time will we be leaving for bataan. she told me that she's still waiting for my father.so Jb and i went for a walk and get back home at around 3pm.

woah so many things happened so my father decided that we're leaving at 5am tomorrow.that would be fine so that we have longer stay there and we can do more things...unfortunately that would mean i would not hear from JB for how many days...hahahahaha missing someone kills me...oh well hope we have a fun trip tom...and i wont miss to tell you what happened...

syet hirap pala mag-english...tang ina di ko na to uulitin...

pero masasabi ko lang...masaya ako...hahahah at opo di pa kami...

happy easter

2007-04-09T03:43:00.000+12:00

this easter sunday was a bit tiring but
fun for me.gumising ako ng 8am dahil sa
isang weirdong panaginip.pagkatapos
mag-almusal, gumawa ng gawaing bahay,
kumain ng tanghalian, at maligo ayun,
umalis na kami papuntang tagaytay.

sa C5 kami dumaan, dahil nagpahatid si
kuya sa may Christ the King sa may greenmeadows.
nang paalis na kami, nakita namin si
jolo revilla...oo tama si mel, di naman
siya ganon ka guwapo pero sino bang
nabutis niya...haaaayyy minsan talaga,
ang buhay unfair.pagdating namin sa
may CALTEX sa SLEX, stop over muna kami.
ihing ihi na kasi ako.so ayung
pictures at kain, kape at C2 muna kami.
mga 3pm larga na naman kami.

first stop, sa pink sisters. daming tao.
wala na nga space for parking so nauna
na lang muna kami nila nanay, lola at
pauline sa chapel.pagbaba ng sasakyan,
CR ang una kong pinuntahan, ewan ko ba
at sobrang weeweeng weewee ako kanina.
after mag CR eh diretsong chapel at
nagdasal.syempre nagpasalamat ako sa
lahat ng blessings na natanggap ko simula
nung huli kaming umakyat nung dec30
hanggang sa araw na ito.halos lahat ng
hiniling ko ay natupad dun. katulad na
lang ng pag-pasa ni mel sa entrance test,
na magtagal pa sana si kuya at si ate dekay.
na makagraduate si mel,mailayo kami
sa sakit at disgrasya.ang maging Dean's
list ako(kung tama ang computations ko...
pero malamang naman..heheh ang yabang
pero basta tignan mo na lang grades ko)
at makita ko na sana yung lalaking
mabait at mamahalin at rerespetuhin at
tatanggapin ako sa kung sino ako.after
ng prayer ko, ayun sumulat uli ako sa
mga hiling ko.yung mga wishes ko eh di ko
na ikekwento no.

next, nagpunta kami ng Lourdes para magsimba.
at katulad sa pink sisters, wala ding
parking space...so umikot pa si tatay
para makabwelo. tamang tama patapos pa
lang yung mass.sakto pagbalik namin,
pasimula pa lang yung mass.at guess what,
dalawang artista uli ang nakasabay namin.
si nova villa at ces quesada.oh well,
star studed din pala ang araw na ito.

after ng mass eh nagdinner kami sa Leslies.
yeah...nakalimutan kong nasa strict diet ako.
hahaha bukas na lang uli...ang sarap ng
kinain namin.sisig, bulalo,seafood bicol
exprexx at fried chicken.sarap talaga.
samahan mo pa ng malamig na simoy ng
hangin ng tagaytay.bago kumain, pictures
uli.after kumain nagpunta muna kami
dun sa may view ng taal at nagpalamaig.
tas may isang batang lalaki sinabunutan si
pauline.buti na lang yung kapatid ko di
marunong gumanti.

mga 7:30 na kami nagsimulang lumarga
pauwi.tas stop over sa caltex at Shell
dahil ewan ko ba...dahil ata sa buko
juice na ininom ni mel at panay ang
weewee nya.at ayun...nakarating kami ng manila
ng mga 10.tas hinatid namin si lola
at ayun uwi na.

haaayyy naasar na ako...di pa rin ako
kinokontact ni JB...eh...pano yan
sa martes na yung date namin...
haaayyy John Benedickt...nasang
lupalop ka ba????

selfish

2007-04-05T22:03:00.000+12:00

i wanted to keep you...to be there by my side...i love the way you took care of me, especially the time when i was sick with fever. you are always there to make me laugh.i never told you these and i know there is no way for you to know.i always tell you that why did you not came sooner, maybe at that time my heart is still free to return the love you have for me. you told me you will do anything just to have me...but i told you I love him so much and i want us to be just friends.

i want to keep you...to be here by my side...but as time passes by being with you makes me guilty of having the two of you in my life.i have to choose between the two of you..and losing one of you will be a pain in my heart.

i want to keep you...to be here by my side...but i chose him instead of you...i just dont want him to get hurt...and i realized i love him so much that it would really hurt me a lot to let him go.i know it would also hurt you, but i know your too strong to understand my situation.

i want to keep you...to be here by my side...i could have said this a while ago ang maybe, just maybe you'll let go of that pride and be happy for the fact that we still have each other as FRIENDS....

gimik

2007-04-05T02:25:00.000+12:00

this day was a bit tiring but if did not go with my family i could have missed so much.pumunta kaming la salle kanina, para ihatid si mel para magpass ng confirmation niya dun.actually, ginawa lang nila yun para lang may sigurado ng school si mel next school year. btw he passed ECE sa lasalle at wait listed siya sa ateneo.mas trip niyang mag-aral sa ateneo, kaso kung biglang hindi igrant sa kanya yung slot wala na siyang magagawa he just have to accept na he would enter la salle.eh ano naman diba?ECE pa rin yun at La salle pa rin yun.after namin sa taft, pumunta kaming SM north para idrop ako dahil last check up ko na sa facial...whaaaattt nagpapafacial ako?oh well nanay ko kasi makulit, dinamay ako sa kaartehan kaya yun.after a while my family decided to eat lunch there kasi nga naman sandali lang naman kasi yung check up, and i bet walang katao tao sa lets face it.nag-lunch kami sa food court.after sa SM north, pumunta kami sa bahay ng ninang ni pauline, para maghatid ng mga pasalubong ng tatay ko.nung papunta na kami sa st joseph village sa tandang sora, bigla akong may naalala.naalala ko ang isang lalaki sa aking panahon ng kabataan. oh well asar ako nun, dahil inaasar ako ng buong bus sa kanya...eh hello pangit pangit ko...(hanggang ngayon pa rin naman)tapos ang taba taba ko pa nun...at isa pa mabait lang talaga siya dahil nakuha niya akong kausapin, tas ayun na inasar na ako ng inasar ng mga ka school bus ko.nung nasabi ko yun, biglang natawa si kuya, it turned out kasi nung hs siya naging magkabanda sila ni kuya.oh well sabay asar naman ng mga magulang ko sa akin.that time i felt na makikita ko siya. naman, maliit lang yung village para di siya makita.nung nagpark na kami sa tapat nung park, di na kami sumunod nila kuya, kasi sabi naman nila tatay sandali lang daw sila...pero matagal eh. at dahil hapon na nun, natulog muna ako. nung bigla akong nagising, nakita ko na lang na may kausap na si kuya na nakaputi. hindi si mel dahil naka blue siya...nyeta..kausap na niya yung lalaking binanggit ko kanina.pagdating nila tatay, sa sasakyan, ikinuwento agad ni kuya na nakita nga niya yung lalaki.tas ayun graduate na siya sa la salle at he is now in med school sa ateneo...syempre sabay buyo naman ng nanay ko na siya na lang. ano ba yun...tas biglang hirit ni kuya na may gf na yun at nasa med school din pero nasa la salle dasma.after a while sa pagkakasawa nila sa pang-aasar sakin tumigil din.after sa tandang sora pumunta kaming MOA...hahahah anong ginawa namin dun...oh well tumingin ng sunset at kumain ng bibingka...at in fairness masarap yung kinain namin...after 2 hrs of just chilling there...uwi na rin. kaya eto nakaharap sa monitor...tinatiyagang magkwento para di
ko maisip ang gumugulo sa utak ko...peste

start of my 2nd week of vacation

2007-04-02T21:18:00.000+12:00

oh well...im starting my april with a....tears...saya no...tears?bakit

sira 3230 ko...nyeta
mauubusan na naman ako ng pera nito
tapos i made someone feel hurt a while ago
at di pa ako gumagaling sa lagnat

san ka pa...haaaayyy san ka pa....

happy birthday

2007-03-31T23:03:00.000+12:00

dalawang taon na rin nang lumipat ako sa blogspot...dalawang taon na rin ang nakakalipas nang maghiwalay kami, kaya ako lumipat dito.dalawang taon na akong sinamahan ng blog ko sa lahat ng nakakatuwa, nakakaiyak, nakakaloka, at nakakatakot na pangyayari sa buhay ko.lagi kang nandiyan at sana magtagal pa..

ngayon na simula na naman ng bagong yugto para sa ating dalawa, sana naman di na ako lumipat kapag naghiwalay na naman (na sana wag mangyari pero alam naman nating di maiiwasan)

mapagkakatiwalaan ka talaga.

hhHHaaAAppPPyYYy BBbbIiiiRrrrTttthhhHdDDDaaaayyYy

nga pala darating na si tatay mamaya!

sayang

2007-03-27T23:53:00.000+12:00

anong oras na ako natulog? 6am na ng umaga ng araw na ito...bakit...simula 12mn kausap ko lang si JB...pakiramdam ko pa nga kanina mauubusan kami ng pag-uusapan pero ayos naman...it turned out...every hour i learn something new about him...pero may isang bagay na medyo strucked me in making a decision about our relationship.i know i have said that its ok with me, pero through out the day di ko natanggal yun sa isip ko...bakit natatakot ako...I trust him dont I?pero bakit natatakot na naman ako...pero amidst everything...some things tell me that I want to give it a try.

9am nagising ako at naligo...pupunta kasi kami ng legarda para kunin yung loan para sa bago naming sasakyan.pagkatapos namin dun...nung pauwi...paliko kami ng lealtad papuntang lacson...ooooppppsss nahuli ng MMDA si kuya...congrats 2ooo pesos din yun for reckless driving...haaayyy ano ba yun.

tas sinundo namin si mel...after nun nag Wok kami...yes sisig na naman...sarap...nabusog talaga ako...buti na lang i did not ate dinner at breakfast so medyo di ako naguilty sa kinanin ko.after nun...uwi na at natulog ako...at naramdaman ko talagang puyat ako...bakit... from 1-6 tulog lang ako...may itutulog pa ba ako nito mamaya...oh well...

nga pala..nag sun ako ngayon...for the reason na...secret...basta...yun na yun...hahahaha tawa na ang lahat...asar lang kasi di pa rin pumapasok yung pinaload ko...haaaaaayyy di lang talaga siguro meant to be... oh well....

unang araw

2007-03-25T00:18:00.000+12:00

unang araw ng bakasyon ngayon...at anong ginawa ko:

1. late akoing gumising...mga 9 na...dahil nga nung sabado pa ako walang tulog san ka naman
2. naglinis ako ng kuwarto...pero di pa tapos...hahahah hanggang martes ata to matatapos...well basta bago dumating tatay ko dapat malinis na siya.
3. pumunta kami ng toyota...nag-order na sila ng bagong sasakyan
4. nangarap akong magka rav 4...yung bago...ang ganda kaso ang presyo... 1,495,000 san ka naman
5. nagpunta kami ng home depot
6. nangulit sa text
7. nagpunta sa mega mall para mag jollibee
8. ehto internet naman...

saya no?!